"I ain't as crazy as I seem to be,
it's just that nothin' is the way that is seem's to me.
Im feelin' less then, druggin' him up with anti-depressants,
In essence im threatenin my character assessment
Truth told, I figure a few hoe's
mixed with some new clothes should cover my loop holes.
If I'm misunderstood or mis-guided,
started when they passed the L' said 'just try it' "
- Joe Budden, Angel in my Life
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My name is Jarell & I'm a drug addict. I'd rather be alone, rather then surrounded by familiar strangers. I listen to wayy too much R&B & i hate you all.
" rather me, i ain't ready to be what you want me to be
ckuz i love you.. i want you to leave, plz..."
my day was medicore, type boring. i enjoyed it though. woke up early since a minute, and mostly cause my nephew learned how to open my door. so my morning wake up was HIM and him waste'n my motherfuckin sprite all over my pillow and bed. that's some gay shit. had to throw em in the dyer and couldn't try to go back to sleep. plus i had to pee baddd. ever woke up like that, dreamed of pissing and wake up dick hard... having to pee bad. that shit happens to me alot. i'd rather have wet dreams, fuck the piss dreams. but i see what movies i'm a download tonight. zack and miri make a porno and the infinite playlist bullshit. woot, i'll be watchin those tomorrow. prolly tonight if i get onto it RIGHT after this shit which i will obviously.
but yeah, back to my day. after i got up... i waited to go get dinner. which was KFC for the game and end up eatin that shit wayyy before the game. and the game started out mad boring but ended fuckin good. i liked the endin. these niggahs fought for that shit. but i really wanted Arizona to win and they didn't so fuck the superbowl. I WANTED carolina to make it but they didn't so i picked outtah the two. and happened to pick arizona cause diamonds from there and fuck pittsburg... just cause they won. NOW, next is the playoffs. time for my team to do there thing, if they don't then my next pick is lakers or detroit. nuggets are aight but they look like they slacking. they gotta get used to billups first. dallas might make it, but might not make it all the way. NETS got potential, alot of it. so i got faith in them making it half of the way and doing good. but they won't make it pass magic or celtics. hopefully celtics get up there, they been kinda actin up. went from 19 games, to fuckin up to back on top with 11 straight wins. 8 more until they hit 19 again, if they do its official that they're the best team in the leauge but that's gone be hard.
" i told you from day one, i aint SHIT when it comes to relationships
i don't have the patiences... "
besides sports, i had a okay day besides tianna and her shit. it's like everyday, same shit. i mean i ain't sayin i dont care for her, but god damn... if you can't just simply be my girl and stop doing the dumb shit and stop gettin me mad then you good. but nah, she bring up shit... COPIES ME, why the fuck would i wanna date myself. i got with u for a reason, not to date my motherfuckin self. be your self, that shit ain't cool or funny. that's annoying. but whats done is done and this time i'm tired of the game... i ain't fuckin with it anymore. i'm done going through it over and over again same shit same shit. me tellin you the SAME shit over and over again and you still repeat your self after knowing how i feel about it. niggah if u ain't listening to me then what the hell should i even bother talkin. but besides that, lol @ ol girl and her bf argue'n over my name being her stat. how simple minded niggahs is. but foreal, i'm on my FUCK that shit. meaning, i'm done being nice and considerate and sensitive. fuck YALL. i'm on my fuck you shit. you cross my path i get in that ass. you say something slick then its FUCK you bitch.
that shit looks harddd, but the last shot looked mad fake. glad they brought vin disel back though. vin and the white dude is what made the movie even worth watchin. could've brought the other people back too, but i guess this is cool, that transformer shit looked hot too. i might end up burning the movie though. i hate going to movies now, specially to watch movies that i know won't be THAT hot, it looks good but i'd rather spend money to go seen AALIYAHS first movie then that. and yeah, allhiphop claims aaliyah bout to drop a movie... not soon but you know sometime. i think that'll be crazy, hope jay & dmx be in. dmx especially... which makes me think about that i miss you video. i think i'll post that. i'm too lazy to go find it right now though. i'll get it after i'm comfortable, and bored or something. my nephew pushin mad buttons on my phone... lemme take the shit from him and get off this shit. HAWLUH
i'm mad this blog took me like 30 miutes to do, that ain't long but still... i had to get the pictures, watch the videos and get the links. write all this shit and at the same time i was talkin to miss yolee. SEEMS like she's back talkin to me but then again not really. i remember i was in deleware or whatever, i talked to her ass OD. we talked on the CP laughin up a storm, then got off and text or called each other. talked for hours, and talked til the sun came up one time. but i was mad sleepy so i decided to let her go and take my ass to sleep. I MEAN, i just had to add that in cause yolee flirted with me ODee then, now she on her new new shit. she fuck with me PARTIME. it's OKAY, i'm a squeeze my way back in then BAM!!
" rather me, i ain't ready to be what you want me to be
ckuz i love you.. i want you to leave, plz..."
my day was medicore, type boring. i enjoyed it though. woke up early since a minute, and mostly cause my nephew learned how to open my door. so my morning wake up was HIM and him waste'n my motherfuckin sprite all over my pillow and bed. that's some gay shit. had to throw em in the dyer and couldn't try to go back to sleep. plus i had to pee baddd. ever woke up like that, dreamed of pissing and wake up dick hard... having to pee bad. that shit happens to me alot. i'd rather have wet dreams, fuck the piss dreams. but i see what movies i'm a download tonight. zack and miri make a porno and the infinite playlist bullshit. woot, i'll be watchin those tomorrow. prolly tonight if i get onto it RIGHT after this shit which i will obviously.
but yeah, back to my day. after i got up... i waited to go get dinner. which was KFC for the game and end up eatin that shit wayyy before the game. and the game started out mad boring but ended fuckin good. i liked the endin. these niggahs fought for that shit. but i really wanted Arizona to win and they didn't so fuck the superbowl. I WANTED carolina to make it but they didn't so i picked outtah the two. and happened to pick arizona cause diamonds from there and fuck pittsburg... just cause they won. NOW, next is the playoffs. time for my team to do there thing, if they don't then my next pick is lakers or detroit. nuggets are aight but they look like they slacking. they gotta get used to billups first. dallas might make it, but might not make it all the way. NETS got potential, alot of it. so i got faith in them making it half of the way and doing good. but they won't make it pass magic or celtics. hopefully celtics get up there, they been kinda actin up. went from 19 games, to fuckin up to back on top with 11 straight wins. 8 more until they hit 19 again, if they do its official that they're the best team in the leauge but that's gone be hard.
" i told you from day one, i aint SHIT when it comes to relationships
i don't have the patiences... "
besides sports, i had a okay day besides tianna and her shit. it's like everyday, same shit. i mean i ain't sayin i dont care for her, but god damn... if you can't just simply be my girl and stop doing the dumb shit and stop gettin me mad then you good. but nah, she bring up shit... COPIES ME, why the fuck would i wanna date myself. i got with u for a reason, not to date my motherfuckin self. be your self, that shit ain't cool or funny. that's annoying. but whats done is done and this time i'm tired of the game... i ain't fuckin with it anymore. i'm done going through it over and over again same shit same shit. me tellin you the SAME shit over and over again and you still repeat your self after knowing how i feel about it. niggah if u ain't listening to me then what the hell should i even bother talkin. but besides that, lol @ ol girl and her bf argue'n over my name being her stat. how simple minded niggahs is. but foreal, i'm on my FUCK that shit. meaning, i'm done being nice and considerate and sensitive. fuck YALL. i'm on my fuck you shit. you cross my path i get in that ass. you say something slick then its FUCK you bitch.
that shit looks harddd, but the last shot looked mad fake. glad they brought vin disel back though. vin and the white dude is what made the movie even worth watchin. could've brought the other people back too, but i guess this is cool, that transformer shit looked hot too. i might end up burning the movie though. i hate going to movies now, specially to watch movies that i know won't be THAT hot, it looks good but i'd rather spend money to go seen AALIYAHS first movie then that. and yeah, allhiphop claims aaliyah bout to drop a movie... not soon but you know sometime. i think that'll be crazy, hope jay & dmx be in. dmx especially... which makes me think about that i miss you video. i think i'll post that. i'm too lazy to go find it right now though. i'll get it after i'm comfortable, and bored or something. my nephew pushin mad buttons on my phone... lemme take the shit from him and get off this shit. HAWLUH
i'm mad this blog took me like 30 miutes to do, that ain't long but still... i had to get the pictures, watch the videos and get the links. write all this shit and at the same time i was talkin to miss yolee. SEEMS like she's back talkin to me but then again not really. i remember i was in deleware or whatever, i talked to her ass OD. we talked on the CP laughin up a storm, then got off and text or called each other. talked for hours, and talked til the sun came up one time. but i was mad sleepy so i decided to let her go and take my ass to sleep. I MEAN, i just had to add that in cause yolee flirted with me ODee then, now she on her new new shit. she fuck with me PARTIME. it's OKAY, i'm a squeeze my way back in then BAM!!
