Thought Process
"I ain't as crazy as I seem to be, it's just that nothin' is the way that is seem's to me. Im feelin' less then, druggin' him up with anti-depressants, In essence im threatenin my character assessment Truth told, I figure a few hoe's mixed with some new clothes should cover my loop holes. If I'm misunderstood or mis-guided, started when they passed the L' said 'just try it' "

- Joe Budden, Angel in my Life
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My name is Jarell & I'm a drug addict. I'd rather be alone, rather then surrounded by familiar strangers. I listen to wayy too much R&B & i hate you all.



January 8, 2009 @ 7:30 PM
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i hope it BURNS everytime you remember me

ayyy, so i haven't blogged inna minute. why ? idk, just don't be feeling it like that. i get on and just say fuck it. go on my hiphop sites, and be off in a hour or two. but now, all my hiphop sites havent updated yet so i'm stuck doing nothing and i gotta keep occupied to stay awake. i haven't gotten my full 8 hours of sleep, niggahs woke me up early to drive them to the hospital. grandfather gotta get his OTHER leg cutt off... smh. niggah can't take care of hiself. had his first leg cutt off a while ago, now he's gettin the other off so he's just out of luck for atleast walkin a lil anymore. that leg is gone. he was in pain in the hospital, i had to leave out of there. he kept making noises and i couldn't bare it. plus i had nephew and he kept watchin him and lookin at how black and red his toes were. that shit was definitley disgustin. it's getting cutt off i think tomorrow or the day next. one of them days, so i know we'll be back up.

school start tomorrow, got 3 classes now 2 cpt classes and math AGAIN. mom gotta go to columbia for her doctor apointment, sister got doctor apointments all over the month until march when she have her second son. mom's last apointment in columbia thankfully... might have to go back to check up or something but not to stay like 6 hours while she's in chemo. i understand why she had to be there so long but its too long. but yeahhh. in other news, i cant stop listenin to this track. this sample is hot, i wish i knew it was saying. the ace da vinci - two in a bucket track. i heard it before, just never really gave it a chance and played the whole thing. now i can't stay off aaliyahs page, weird.

i'm about to surf the web or something, tired of bloggin already. niggahs been ignoring me lately. BACK on that bullshit. i see i always seem to entertain it though. back to my idc attitude then, niggahs just gone deal with it. i'm done caring cause niggahs take it for granted and shit. sit around and try to abuse it and i'm not with it. so thank you all for this. i'm gone.

" nothing lasts forever, whatever... "

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