"I ain't as crazy as I seem to be,
it's just that nothin' is the way that is seem's to me.
Im feelin' less then, druggin' him up with anti-depressants,
In essence im threatenin my character assessment
Truth told, I figure a few hoe's
mixed with some new clothes should cover my loop holes.
If I'm misunderstood or mis-guided,
started when they passed the L' said 'just try it' "
- Joe Budden, Angel in my Life
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My name is Jarell & I'm a drug addict. I'd rather be alone, rather then surrounded by familiar strangers. I listen to wayy too much R&B & i hate you all.
" don't go. . . ckuz you make livin' so difficult when you're not here with me. "
i'm pretty tired right now, but i just wanted to blog real quick. might not be anything long... just a quick recap of my day or whatever. it might be long.. cause right now i'm edit'n my singingbox now that it's back working. ( mad firefox won't play it ) but i got two other internet services so idc, maybe my firefox is just malfunctioning and mine only. idk. but while these songs upload to fileden i guess i'll edit this shit. i signed up for twitter today, i have no idea why... but it should be decent. doesn't seem like no gay shit. it just sounds gay " twitter " maybe it's just me though, that just seems gay. but i signed up as ( drugmoney ) if you're on it and lookin for me. now that i think of all the things i wanna write about... this blog actually might come out to be as long as my last two blogs. if you don't feel like readin, i ain't askin you too. i'm just in the writin mood. i gotta get a password to microsoft office 2007 also. FOR THOSE WHO HAVE IT, hawluh at me i ain't buyin that shit.
today, was a bullshit day. i won't bother to complain, cause atleast i didn't have no hard ass homework and shit. it was a cool day at school, was actually not listening to my teacher in my first class... i was on the internet doing other shit, thought she'd noticed me but she didn't. that was cool, i'm gettin back addicted to CS.. that's gonna have to end like foreal. that shit is no good. but 2nd class was decent. she went over the quiz that i obviously did great on... and then she teached us the next chapter or whatever. it wasn't that big of a deal, i just hate sittin there doing math a whole hour and 20 minutes of my day. i don't know why, i just feel like high school was useless. i did all them math classes to GET A JOB, not to go to college and do more to get a job. i'm buggin & i'm complaining, don't mind it.
but other then classes, my day was okay. came home to my nephew & mya ( his first cousin ) walkin around my living room. two bad ass kids, that's horrible but she wasnt even bad. just cried alot... u put her down to walk she cried, you go to lay her down she'll cry.. i guess that's just lil girls. idk. played the game, got on here... went back to the game & texted a lil... i think i need a new phone ( i don't NEED, i just want... for the hell of it ) but another blackberry just cause my phone startin to get annoying. i want something new, idk what kind though. i know i gotta pay my brother some money for my phone bill when i get taxes or sometime soon cause he gone start bitchin about it soon. I GOT YOU BRO. i gotta hit up rock hill and check out wan's college. i haven't left sumter since i came back from delaware... well columbia, but that don't count. it's right down the street basically.
100 to 0 ? that's not possible, how did they NOT score at all ?
" sorry is not enough "
so i downloaded a bunch of r&b songs, i can't do rap no more... until joey drop new music or another decent rapper put out some soulful music. keri hilson got a new song with ne - yo, but i don't really like it... i don't like her, she's just kinda cute or whatever. idk why this niggah trey been sayin she BAD, SHE AIGHT! gtfon. she kind've sounded like beyonce just now though. fuck her, i took a sleepin pill and i should be sleepy now but i'm not. WHY i took it ? cause i've been up mad late latley and that can't continue during the weekdays when i got a 9AM class and shit, even though it's just like one class tomorrow and thursday SO WHAT, that's too early to be wakin a niggah up talkin bout learning some damn difficult computer shit yenno ? but i got a test, well a quick quiz that i'll study for in FIVE seconds.
about tianna, i mean i gave it though. maybe the shit she said about my personality and my character ain't such a big of a deal i made it to be. i was just buggin on some dumb shit. i mean, i felt it was cause it came outtah no where and i expected HER to know that shit, and to know that's how i am but i just assumed she didn't after that. made me feel like she didn't even know me at ALL. ( i'm ready to fall, what about you ?) i went to everybody bitchin about that one small thing though, that was kind've whack of me. and all of a sudden maddd people poppin up outtah no where. i gotta calm it down and start ignorin some motherfuckers. only way for things to go back to the way it was. i hate how things are between me and tianna, just readin her blog got me shaking my head. btw, i did fell asleep last night.. why would i hang up on you ? think about it. i went to sleep and woke up at like 6, and drunk some kool aid and stayed up til like 8 until i fell the fuck to sleep. GREAT SLEEP but then agian i was yawning the whole time in class... i was hope'n nobody notice ESPECIALLY NOT THE TEACHER
this j holiday song has been in my head for the past minutes along with that dream & mariah carey song... mariah killed that shit, fuck dream.. he DID AIGHT, but mariah with her lil high notes and her voice... killah! i listen to too much r&b. hiphop is losing a fan! i kid. i can't EVER turn my back to my motherfuckin hiphop <3!
" don't go. . . ckuz you make livin' so difficult when you're not here with me. "
i'm pretty tired right now, but i just wanted to blog real quick. might not be anything long... just a quick recap of my day or whatever. it might be long.. cause right now i'm edit'n my singingbox now that it's back working. ( mad firefox won't play it ) but i got two other internet services so idc, maybe my firefox is just malfunctioning and mine only. idk. but while these songs upload to fileden i guess i'll edit this shit. i signed up for twitter today, i have no idea why... but it should be decent. doesn't seem like no gay shit. it just sounds gay " twitter " maybe it's just me though, that just seems gay. but i signed up as ( drugmoney ) if you're on it and lookin for me. now that i think of all the things i wanna write about... this blog actually might come out to be as long as my last two blogs. if you don't feel like readin, i ain't askin you too. i'm just in the writin mood. i gotta get a password to microsoft office 2007 also. FOR THOSE WHO HAVE IT, hawluh at me i ain't buyin that shit.
today, was a bullshit day. i won't bother to complain, cause atleast i didn't have no hard ass homework and shit. it was a cool day at school, was actually not listening to my teacher in my first class... i was on the internet doing other shit, thought she'd noticed me but she didn't. that was cool, i'm gettin back addicted to CS.. that's gonna have to end like foreal. that shit is no good. but 2nd class was decent. she went over the quiz that i obviously did great on... and then she teached us the next chapter or whatever. it wasn't that big of a deal, i just hate sittin there doing math a whole hour and 20 minutes of my day. i don't know why, i just feel like high school was useless. i did all them math classes to GET A JOB, not to go to college and do more to get a job. i'm buggin & i'm complaining, don't mind it.
but other then classes, my day was okay. came home to my nephew & mya ( his first cousin ) walkin around my living room. two bad ass kids, that's horrible but she wasnt even bad. just cried alot... u put her down to walk she cried, you go to lay her down she'll cry.. i guess that's just lil girls. idk. played the game, got on here... went back to the game & texted a lil... i think i need a new phone ( i don't NEED, i just want... for the hell of it ) but another blackberry just cause my phone startin to get annoying. i want something new, idk what kind though. i know i gotta pay my brother some money for my phone bill when i get taxes or sometime soon cause he gone start bitchin about it soon. I GOT YOU BRO. i gotta hit up rock hill and check out wan's college. i haven't left sumter since i came back from delaware... well columbia, but that don't count. it's right down the street basically.
100 to 0 ? that's not possible, how did they NOT score at all ?
" sorry is not enough "
so i downloaded a bunch of r&b songs, i can't do rap no more... until joey drop new music or another decent rapper put out some soulful music. keri hilson got a new song with ne - yo, but i don't really like it... i don't like her, she's just kinda cute or whatever. idk why this niggah trey been sayin she BAD, SHE AIGHT! gtfon. she kind've sounded like beyonce just now though. fuck her, i took a sleepin pill and i should be sleepy now but i'm not. WHY i took it ? cause i've been up mad late latley and that can't continue during the weekdays when i got a 9AM class and shit, even though it's just like one class tomorrow and thursday SO WHAT, that's too early to be wakin a niggah up talkin bout learning some damn difficult computer shit yenno ? but i got a test, well a quick quiz that i'll study for in FIVE seconds.
about tianna, i mean i gave it though. maybe the shit she said about my personality and my character ain't such a big of a deal i made it to be. i was just buggin on some dumb shit. i mean, i felt it was cause it came outtah no where and i expected HER to know that shit, and to know that's how i am but i just assumed she didn't after that. made me feel like she didn't even know me at ALL. ( i'm ready to fall, what about you ?) i went to everybody bitchin about that one small thing though, that was kind've whack of me. and all of a sudden maddd people poppin up outtah no where. i gotta calm it down and start ignorin some motherfuckers. only way for things to go back to the way it was. i hate how things are between me and tianna, just readin her blog got me shaking my head. btw, i did fell asleep last night.. why would i hang up on you ? think about it. i went to sleep and woke up at like 6, and drunk some kool aid and stayed up til like 8 until i fell the fuck to sleep. GREAT SLEEP but then agian i was yawning the whole time in class... i was hope'n nobody notice ESPECIALLY NOT THE TEACHER
this j holiday song has been in my head for the past minutes along with that dream & mariah carey song... mariah killed that shit, fuck dream.. he DID AIGHT, but mariah with her lil high notes and her voice... killah! i listen to too much r&b. hiphop is losing a fan! i kid. i can't EVER turn my back to my motherfuckin hiphop <3!