" don't you have a man ? " i just wrote a whole long ass blog and i felt it didn't look write on my blogspot so i'm writing a shorter one just to snatch that long shit off the main shit. i'm about to hit up myspace and my music sites before this internet decides it wants to cutt of on me and piss me the fuck off. lol @ char pulling a old head, WDF dude 21 fuckin with a 16 yr old.. niggah you a fuckin gimmick gtfon. i'll be damn if i KNOW a broad is 16 and i still try to get with her. not even NOW, i feel like that's way too outtah rang. 17 is cool.. so RED, DANIELLE... fuck both of ya'll young lie'n broads. i keep bringing ya'll up ckuz of that lame ass lies. its just the internet, your real lives must be shitty diamond tits are beautiful, she needs to get actually man and not none of them niggahs that be fuckin with her and then just dip when they get tired of her. but... i'm a go and listen to this old shit we recorded in my cousin booth - peace.
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" is anything I'm doing brand new ? " yeah, madd nervous ckuz moms about to have surgery.. i ain't get NO sleep last night. was up til 5:30, kept getting up and shit smoking the black. i wanna smoke a black now, but niggahs in this house gone keep track of me and ain't gone let me out there site, as well as my sister i guess i'll wait til i get back home til i smoke my lungs away. i only went to one class, the boring class. i promise you, i was in the back falling asleep... broads chucklin in my ear and shit, i got mad for a second ckuz i'm tryna rest. but the class eventually ended. " It seems like everything I do, your used to it " had HELL with my nephew in the hospital early, i was madddd as fuck with that lil niggah. now i'm in here with Q & D, this niggah q be on that whack hiphop.. i gotta put him on everytime i come here. niggah can't SLEEP on budden though. the nurse at the hospital looked about 27-30, but jesus her light brown eyes had me.. and she kept walking through the waiting room back and forth. but yeah, my day was okay... kind've bad. had a few bad moments that i was pissed at. i'm bout to spend broke on stupid shit too. i'm a do it just for moms though, plus she MIGHT be sick so she signed my name on her car... gave me her safe card and her number for it incase she be too sick. i HATE when she talk like that.. making it seem like something's gonna happen to her. that shit makes me madd nervous, like i cant have ANYTHING happen to her ckuz i'm a really be lost if that shit happens. so pray for the best, i will... everyone else in the family will so for those who care a least a lil bit, do that for me you make me smileeeeeeeeeee, with my heartt. i'm about to go into the living room and see what my family doing and what my nephew is doing. i'm a download some intrsumentals while i'm up late tonight, knowing i won't be able to sleep at ALL. and i swear i'm writtin alot right now, WHY ? idk. tianna just popped into my head, i ain't get to talk to her bitch ass earlier ckuz i was on my phone on yahoo and i wasn't paying it no attention so yeah. her bitch ass needs a phone or some shit before i get pissed and piss on somebody. " Is this gonna last ? Your up on a pedastal, are we moving too fast ? Feel like I'm in crazy competition with the past.. " lmaoooo @ this niggah burning all these freestyles, maddd freestyles of him, my cousin dubb, d, larry, breeze. yo... shit is maddd old but i remember these shits. that was when rapping was fun, and you know we did that shit for entertainment and shit.. now niggahs in the booth slave'n it. i ain't with that, i'm a work a mixtape though, writing a few tracks as we SPEAK to no beats though. that's all i need is beats from cousin and i'll go in and actually have a FEW mixtapes written. " Tell me baby, am I too late ? "
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so im not paying my teahcer any attention at all and shes making jokes that aren't even funny. im glad im in the back of the class with the women. I keep scratching my ankle and I know its ashy but it feels like ants are sttacking me and shit. i'll leave
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" tell me it's real.. " so my laptop won't last for 2 seconds (meaning it was about to die, but i charged it) and i'm really hot right now. i think i'll get up and turn the AC on high as it can go and then jump in the shower and pack for tomorrows trip and then smoke my black. what trip ? moms having surgery tuesday like i said before so, i'm a leave today and MIGHT come back after the surgery to go to school. i skipp school monday and tuesday, only got to one of my classes tomorrow so that's why i'm kind've happy or whatever. but i'm a go now and be on my way. " it's a sepcial way i fold my flag " i'm packed, and i smoke the black that got my stomach hurtin now... idk why, but it does now and i gotta upload a bunch of songs on my ipod & nano right now for the trip... even though its like 2 days i'm packing all this shit like i'm a be gone for a WHILE. i'm wylin, but i'm a watch a movie til i fall alseep. even though i won't get sleepy til madd late and i'm startin to feel like i gotta shit, that should releave me and relax me. this fan is cooling me down so fuck the AC. and home improvement is really entertaining right now.. george lopez need to hurry up and come on " don't stay to keep me happy, stay ckuz you're happy "
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hello tianna here. iuno why i decided to blog up in this shit but while im hereeee. i already know that most of you dont like me lol. no need to broadcast it to the world , youll be alright. take that stick out your ass. goodday. in the mean timeee , jarell i hate you. :) aw.
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" i give you my all, but it seems like that's not enough " i don't care though, nephew's with mom so he should be good until the AM... i'm bout to watch FOOLS GOLD until i pass out, might text a few people if i can't sleep, might end up watchin 21 i dk but yeah... night.
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" please exscuse my hands.." i'm tired o my nephew, had him ALL fuckin day. from the time when i woke up to now, well i had 2-3 hour break to watch a lil tv, BUT guess who ruined my alone time my sister bored ass. she stuck in the hospital until her sugar goes down which looks like until saturday, or sunday, they asses don't know. i had a horrible weekend, had to wake up early and all this gay shit.. and THEN next week i won't be doing shit BUT shopping and doing all that other shit FOR my moms. so yeah, ckuz she has surgery tuesday pray for her, i know i will regardless who doesn't. i hope it don't be as bad as they making it seem. her kemo that is, hope it goes good and shit. but yeah, i'm a relax and smoke this black. badboys II on, time to finish watchin this and then listen to some music. some lloyd, ne-yo... SOME soothe'n r&b music foreal. i need some good music to calm me down and chill me out. SHIT LIKE THAT, fuck the rest of ya'll. friday is suppose to be enjoying or whatever. tianna needs to find her way to me.. i'm tired of waiting to she sign on or some shit, she needs a fuckin phone foreal. " i can change your life, if you let me... "
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" backseat action, out in the middle of traffic " so, i like fell asleep with my nephew, trying to put him to sleep once moms got him. she got him now, i'll sleep GREAT tonight, i should be sleep right now but i left tianna a message. i THINK that's her phone... oh well if it isn't. i called it two nights in a row and she ain't say shit about it or neither has the person called me back so whatever. my eyes are gettign heavy.. time to get off and watch some george lopez cuzzo " I'm so closeee, I can feel it... " and the song with jennifer hudson and tpain that is playing is not homo... so fuck all ya'll that have ya'll comments foreal. the song is heat to me, why ? idk, jennifer just has that voice that i'm in love with, as well as beyonce but its just her voice gets my boxers wet and you know... i can sit and listen to her sing. Dream girls put me on her though - i'll leave. but yeah, i'm feelin horny and all that good shit tonight. why ? idk, just a feeling that shot over me so quick. that mizztwerkemsome chick is bad from the back, i wonder if she's ugly " Bodies touchin... lips kissin, holdin tight, sweat drippin'... i can feel you all over me, heart racin' - your ridin', i'm cummin'... can't fight it ! "
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" I give you my all, just holla at me if you want more " so, i'm fuckin dizzy and shit, eyes prolly red ckuz of the smoke or whatever. i'm watchin one on one, this channel showed EVERY show i been wondern where it went... went from jamie foxx, to wayan brothers to one on one now... i wonder whats coming on next. who cares ? i do, ckuz i got nothing else to do ckuz i gotta babysit for the next three days until this niggah jj get home from working. i need sometihng to drink... XXL still sendin me magizines, i need to send them that 24 dollars to get another 2 years worth or whatever but i be slackin. i GET the money then forget about the books and spend the money on other shit. it's crazy but its whatever... i'm mad it was so cold today even though i love winter so yeahh " OH! - you not feelin me? Fine... it cost you nothin - pay me no mind " niggahs be thinkin my motorola q a blackberry, might as well be. looks like one but its better yenno ? lol @kenyatta having a kid. alllllllll these bitches in class showing off there kids... " yeah, look at my boo boo shabonka " my throat is hurtin right now, and i don't want to eat no spaghetti and i had some subway, shit was greattt. i need to stop smoking too, i don't want to die from cancer or whatever that shit ain't cool with me. i need my lungs man! somebody help me quit, i don't need to smoke! my nephew won't stay asleep. he'll wake up every 10-20 minutes, sit up and stare at where he was laying and look around rubbin his eyes THEN cry. and he JUST started moving right when i typed that. let me shut up. i'm a watch this show, smoke this black and watch this movie. i haven't talked to tianna punk ass in a while, well yesterday but it was like two seconds of hi.. sup type shit, i see i'm a have to stop being mean and rude to her and all that sorts of shit. i'm a go though... had to mention that dyke before i log off and listen to this gay ass cd jennifer hudson.. PEACE! " She do anythin' necessary for him & I do anythin' necessary for her "
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i don't respond to a sublime, it ain't hurt that much... so i watched vantage point and lewan was right, that shit is annoying but was okay. i just hated the fact they just couldn't let the movie play out, they had to rewind it everytime it got close to finding something new out. my hair itchin like a bitch.. which means i need a good wash. i guess i'll do that in the AM, wash this shit and get dressed. morgan tellin me bout how she columbian and egyptian.. that's cute.. er body wanna be "jamacian, black, rican" but yeah, nobody ever told me they were mixed with anything but those three so you know... moms want her tv lol, so i gotta get up earlier. i hope she get it though, she got the money for it.. she just can't lift it so that's where i come in at yenno ? i mean she can get somebody to tote it out the store if i gotta be in school... i'll be back to write more " ARE YOU IN THAT MOOD YET ? " this niggah jay be on his deep shit in his blogs, i think i'm a start back fucking with his posts, all these other niggahs blogs be all short and boring... thats the reason my blogs went from paragraphs to a paragraph, two if your lucky.. i got lazy.. fuck it though. i'm leave that venting shit for the boy james though, i don't want all you niggahs in my life ckuz i ain't tryna get the bullshit comments, ESPECIALLY jeanri bitch ass.. & yeah this is my third time editin this, i need to just let this post be and start a new one but i don't want to so fuck that i'll just add on to this blog until 12:00. This MM2 is killing me tonight.. joe budden made my night with that song though " i don't wanna catch no FEELINGS, but ma you can jump off a buildinnng, tonighttt " foreal, do that PEACE " I'm somewhere between the real and the fakeness "
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" eye threw the scope, incase my fo's at the top of that stair way to heaven. " my arm is hurtin, this joe budden freestyle is sick... i'll holler. FUCK ALLTEL, they told me them storage cards costed like 9.99 but i get there... "39.99" BITCH I NEED THIS MONEY FOR some blacks, and some other bullshit i'm a throw it away with. fuck alltel foreal though... HOLLER " never cared, i was careless, feared being afriad or maybe i'm afriad to be fearless or feared being fearless, but fearful...so even in my carelessness, gotta be careful "
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" momma loved me, pops i miss you... god help me forgive him i got some issues " so, i'm sleepy & i skipped english today but atleast i had a reason. moms & sister was at the hospital so i swung by there to pick them up even though they wasn't ready, i was glad i got out of that class. I know she was gone talk my ears to death so i made sure i seen her before class. kenyetta big ass head, swear she went from rollin her eyes at me to smilin at me, starin all up in my face waiting for me to say something. her friend she walked in and out of class with was cute, but broad was maddd boney. i mean, she was all bones but i guess if that what them white boys into. " there apart of the list, things that i miss "
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you niggahs couldn't touch the broads i choose... i swear, i need to turn joe budden off... too many quotes from this niggah that i re-use. making me write more blogs just so i can add a quote with the post and shit. this superman is gay, seeing it too much you already know what's going to happen and shit. i can quote everything from this movie as it happen, weird shit. i'm a leave though.. " still turning down pussy, you get too many offers "
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" i know about snakes, ckuz i use to deal with em" a niggah just get up like 1 hour or so what ago, feelin wide away but i still want to go back to sleep. ain't shit for me on a sunday but to sit around and watch movies. all these movies on tv are lame and old i don't feel like laying here watchin them shits. i might go get me a box of blacks after i empty my bank account IF my moms let me do that. I don't even know how much i got in that bitch... fuck it i'm a still hit up the atm and get me a box of blacks, prolly a blunt or some shit. i'm bout to hit up some movies that i downloaded last night, a niggah been tryna download a movie for a good 5 days, shit still ain't done. " matter of fact i ain't gone say shit, ONE OF YOU LIL NIGGAHS SAY SOMETHING AGAIN, I SWEAR TO GOD, i'm sendin my lil niggah to holler at ya'll " "i feel like everybody around me is a fuck up.. "
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" what niggahs mad for ? " looooooool, this song been on repeat for the past 10 minutes. " i told ma, i ain't the dude that you get to knoww, and if i take you out then its just for show " i had to smoke my black and take a break from this song... song is too funny. this niggah budden made my night foreal, i gotta get up on some more of his songs.. but yeah, aaliyah bout to put me on some more old tracks. she in denial she a groupie, we all know the truth. Well all those who know her/of her would know that she's his number one groupie. fantasies about the niggah and shit, RELAX LIYAH but yeah, my arm is numb'n the fuck up. shit feels mad weird... bbl " you write a whole paragraph on a text, just hit you back with a smiley face =)" edit - i'm going on my chill mode, yenno ? fuck all the bullshit, i'm just gone chill. i swear i been in and out of alot of shit latley, i'm a just live and focus on making sure nobody stressin my moms out and shit and school. not getting hyped bout nothing, leavin everything alone, puttin shit on pause for the time being. " even if her body make a nig wan eat that bitch you don't make a niggah better... better see fab "
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" it seem a lil strange, she be calling my name... " i'm tired, lol @ dudes in sumter... these niggahs is so lame. how you get mad cause a niggah don't wanna buy your shit. had to leave since cedric wasn't answerin his fuckin phone. i gotta chill with that niggah one weekend. and uhh, this joe budden mixtape is kinda booty being that majority of it looks like a bunch of songs i already seen and a bunch of skits. hoopz lil sexy ass on flavor of love.
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"no stress. love. live life. proceed. progress... " i'm mad i just get in and inna few i gotta leave again, well prollyy a hour away but still... like inna minute i gotta move some shit around and all that good shit. atleast i get my phone, and shit i'm straight. I ain't worried bout a damn thing.. sittin here watchin set it off. The good part is coming on now, they robbin there last bank and shit. i'm about to get up and go though. ol girl from that other movie in the car b bleedin bad, about to die and shittt. sad part when she dies. first time i seen this, i fell in love. specially the end where everybody dies and she's somewhere in mexico and that song comes on... let me go put my food up and play with me phone until i gotta get up and move shit around. brb
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" fuck the world, fuck my moms and my girl " lol, yeah im done. she gave me a reason not to give two fucks anymore. fuck it, fuck her.. fuck it all. its donee. in better news last night was a great night. I got my motorola q today. that's what im on now... peace. " well maybe not my moms, just let me remain calm "
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" they shootin! * pilar: either way i stand by what i said * pilar: she chased anthony & he aint want her * pilar: she just needs someone * pilar: p o i n t b l a n k * pilar: and id mention lena * pilar: but * pilar: you know * pilar: i dont wanna get you in trouble * pilar: ask her why her and anthony dont talk no more * jarell.: who, tianna ? * pilar: mhm * jarell.: ok * pilar: and it aint about me knowing her entire life, anthony tells me everything * pilar: she thinks people care about her lol pilar: lena fucking her man * pilar: and im just his homie * pilar: you can blur that out * jarell.: nah, i'll add it * pilar: and edit my words * pilar: to form what you like * pilar: LMAO * pilar: you gonna let her know lena fucking you? * jarell.: niggah i don't fuck w/ lena no more uh, made you look.. "
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" niggahs crack under pressure, me ? i relax under pressure " i'm cooling it and shit, idk what tianna talkin bout.. lol @ her losing her phone though. i gotta get my bread up and go get my phone tomorrow. that shit is 200 off top, then i SHOULD get that 100 back and shit after i send some letter to them people, get my brother to put the phone on. help moms to go get her tv and shit and all this other shit. smartguy's on, i haven't seen this show in a whileeee. idk why they startin to put it back on tv... it's cool. they need to throw martin back on tv. He need to do a new tv show, martin's that niggah. but yeah, i'm sittin here light headed... stomach hurtin and cold as fuck i think i'm a chill until 8 - the time nikki bring her ass home. like, i'm a really start saving instead of throwing money away. Now that i'm seeing niggahs in this house bringing mony home and gone start paying me for petty shit, like owin me... just paying me ckuz i looked out for them whenever or just watchin my nephew. you already know i'm a save all that, THEN on top of that i'm a try and get me a settle job. I don't need one as of now, but still... i love money. oh & the college finacial aid check came back so yeah " pirate skulls & bonessss " edit - lol @ niggahs trying me and shit, like is that what you really want ? niggahs think that's a good idea, smh if you don't go kill yourself motherfucker. i'll be back later though and i'm kinda mad i ain't get to talk to my chick inna minute and shit. i'll be okay... peaceee
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" rell had to get the shallow shit up off him... " so today was straight, jessica being loud and country as ever in class making everybody look at her everytime she yelling to the teacher ckuz she don't understand some shit. she's cool though, uhh.. that class was boring. Took a quiz, that most likley i failed but i'll get it so yeah. i'm sittin here watchin this family... forgot the name of it but yeah with the bald head wayan brother and the bright bitch from martin... i don't be remember names and shit. When u could look in the mirror like "There I am"
And still not see... what you've become
I know I'm guilty of it too but, not like them
nephew sittin here botherin me, niggahs came over... dropp him over and left again, how they know i wasn't sleep or something ? fuckin faggots. but yeah, i'm a go. oh yeah, all you niggahs with the slick shit to me that i don't pay attention to, or got some kinda hate towards... fuck ya'll niggahs <3 mucho love. " niggahs is brainless to unnecessarily go through these changes "
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shake up the world, that is what i'm about to do... fuck the world.
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" i be the boss of that, i'm on her shit " just called moms and she's like right down the street, coming home from work. i got something in my eye but it ain't hurtin that bad, i'll rub them til they turn red so i ain't gone fuck with em right now. I got cpt and math tomorrow... hopfully it be just something i fly through like today. My english class is so easy. She'll talk our ears to death, give us an asignment and then be letting us out 20 to 30 minutes early to go work on the assignment knowing most of us don't do it, like me... i left out that bitch and went straight to the house. family matters is boring, my albums is download & i'm downloading more porn, so fuck ya'll.
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" you ain't gotta jock me homie, jock my chick " tonight is a good night, breakin all the rules just went off... i forgot about that movie, good movie indeed. i'm watchin rush hour right now but i guess i'm a just watch hellboy tonight before i go to sleep. T mobile still on that BS, my text messages ain't working. I need some money to buy me a box of blacks so i can finish killing my lungs. these bitches be on some other shit though, lol. it's all oodles and noodlesss. i don't give a fuck no more, i don't care no more not only about that, but alot of shit i been puttin to the side. so fuck it, fuck all ya'll and if you don't know if i'm talking about you... just ask. i'll tell you. bitches got madd salty after i got with tianna, fuck is wrong with broads ? - ya'll gone be okay, i promise " that's alright, you hate us.. its NOTHING "
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" tell me another lie " the roof of my mouth is itchin' and shit, i think i'm getting a ear infection. i'm watching this jamie foxx movie... i remember but then i don't. its like that " two can play that game " shit, with Morris Chestnut black ass. this water is good, and i had a okay day at school... that english class is wild, all the reading, dicussin' and shit like that is killing me. The essays are nothing, i love writing... i sit and write til my hand cramp up, just by writing pages of pages of rhymes and shit. i sat by kenyettah ass before class started, went to bother her big ass head. she sittin there rolling her eyes. i mean, i've seen how people simply roll there eyes... but no, she gotta blink her eye lashes with it. like wooow. i'm mad, i miss a day of school and ain't miss SHIT. I go back to class, they telling me i ain't miss shit and i'm thinkin i'm a have to catch up... man gtfon. I gotta do my math quiz today, and then do the homework even though it all ain't due until the 30th. MY PHONE WONT LET ME TEXT, so if u texted me anytime today, and i didn't respond its ckuz t-mobile bitch ass acting gay. I can't send messages and shit, that's some booty shit. My aunt pose to check it out when she home i think inna hour or two. " i don't want to know what i know to be true what i need you to do... tell me another lie "
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" why does she stay ? "
bored as hell in my first class right now, i'm suppose to go see my teacher to get the questions i missed and shit but i'm too lazy to look for the computer labs and shit, so i'll go after i get out of my 2nd class. i'm on allhiphop, tryna sign on.. but i can't remember passwords like that. tianna says she's gonna draw something for me... how sweet right ? i know... gtfo. this chick in this class used to go to crestwood, her ass is just huge and beautiful, but she's so black.. oh well. i'll blog later..
peacee
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" that you want me, when you had me
love is crazy, now I can smile and say...
i can't get to sleep, i haven't talked to tianna tonight.. i don't think i'll get to sleep peacefully. its almost 3:00 and i got a headache... well not really. I took two pills and i finish homework... I think i'll turn this cpu off and try and get some shut eye for school tomorroww. i need some knowledge and shit. Will smith is keeping me up and shit... let me turn the channel or something
" ain't that funny "
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" shake up the world, that is what i'm about to do " okay, yeah... i forgot to blog today. I skipped my one class today... i was going to hop up and just toss on my dickies and a white t and stuff. I didn't even feel like moving at all. I was just gone slip on my bedroom shoes, toss the book in my bookbag and dippp. But i couldn't get up for SHIT. I took some pills and slept all through the day. I'm sleepy now, but i KNOW i won't get no sleep. Sister took my phone... the only entertainment i'd have without this lame computer and my nephew is knocked out beside me and shit.. he'll wake up soon and annoy me even more..I ain't ready for that. I just wanna go to school and stuff so i'll blog later " homie yeen even on my altitude "
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" it was all good, just a week ago " tomorrow needs to hurry up and come, i'm too anxious. i just can't stand this white chicks accent, she talks too fuckin much, short ass. niggahs that attend live like 40 minutes away frm the school. wdf ? idk. i get annoyed easily & quickly so, don't bug me about simple shit. i ain't tryna hurt feelings. today, idk.. i just felt good & was in a good mood. prolly tianna, prolly just because i ain't stressin' bout shit... but its funny, people change so quick its weird, but i'll leave it be.
" it's funny what, seven days can change "
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" i can change your life, if you let me " so, inna minute i will really start reading. i hit my finger on a bunch of things today...mom kept yelling "BOY BE CAREFUL, YOU MIGHT GET IT CUTT OFF" i can't dodge everything, its my hand... i don't pay attention to where and what my finger hit. But ohwell, i'll be devastated if they cut it off. I can't have that. I'm a start on my english homeworm then tomorrow night i guess i'll do my math homework and my math quiz. It shouldn't be that hard, i should zip right through it. my arm is hurtin now, i bought another bed today.. this should be good for a couple weeks. I'm a take care of it this time though. I get annoyed and bored quick, idk why.. but i noticed that today. I stayed home today, it was an okay day... i'm just mad tomorrow i go back to school, it's just one class.. i know but GOD " i know what you're used to, & i can show you something that's better... "
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" quit the games " its almost one... i got pain in my am, the feeling in my finger seems like its coming back and i can barley type ckuz this damn index finger is wrapped up. I'm sittin here watchin tuxedo and shit. It's a good movie.. i already seen it but yeah, nothings else on tv I guess i'll watch meet dave til i fall asleep and shit... I'll blog tomorrow or something, i'll talk to you faggots later.
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"don't you everr get to comfortableeee" i'm tired, i think the pain in my finger is coming soon.. its numb now and i think i'ma overdose tonight, i was going to last night but luckily i feel asleep. Yolee & ibi bitch asses fuckin' with me over the phone right now.. i hate these two, they love me though ALWAYS CALLING ME, but yeah.. i spent my whole day at the hospital, walmart gettin medicine, all around sumter with a SORE arm and a numb finger that was bleedin on and off. THEN tianna didn't text me at all, and decide to call 52 mins ago... while i was in the shower. i'm a relax.. fuckthisinternet. "if you wanna leave, be my guest." editi feel like, well actually i don't know WHAT to feel, know what to think.. i'm just gone do me and shit. i dont know what's going on around me anymore. shits like all fucked up and twisted that i don't know left from right, and if left is really right...idk if that makes sense but that's where i'm at right now. so, i'd appreciate somebody to put me back on track, id preciate it.
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what uppppppp, what's happenin all you haters, can get at me...  i guess thats what they hatin' for, shit you so damn lame. aight, i'm BACK! i didnt feel like create'n another post so fuck it. Right now, it's freezin in this house, TOO cold. I feel like i should go back outside and sit til 11:00, but nah. I got some homework to do after i pick moms up. I guess i'll bring my laptop along with me, do it while i'm in the car waiting. I was pose to meet up with cedric and them boys earlier but i got caught up at my g-ma house and they called and told me they already left the mall and shit and was going back to the hood so fuck it. i wonder where they moved guccis(name of a club) to. I think they renamed it or something. I put peroxide on my finger... the one that got infected, WOW that shit feels waaaaayy better then it did before. I swear i been puttin it on it for the longest and it never felt this good. & FUCKYOU tianna, i might not even ANSWER my phone when u call back. I'm burning this WA NTED movie over, i gotta throw these dvdrs away and find some more i can burn the rest of these movies on. i'll holler
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" ain't got no time for the haters, just live your life" sup ? my finger feels like hell right now, i try to drain the pus out of it last night, stuck a needle in it... a HOT needle, a pen, anything sharp.. last night i stuck it in my finger. I wanted to use a knife, but that would've prolly hurt. Uh, i got a band aid on it now, just to see if that would make it feel better. It ain't workin. lol @ jae though, swear her actual life must suck. but yeah, tianna being a faggot and i'm sleepy still. I gotta sit in the car for an hour or less i think.. on our way to columbia. I think it's gonna be longer ckuz we're not going to my aunt house, which usually takes about an hour to get to. I gotta register - wevote08.com. I don't feel like registerin though. lol @ mccain having nickoloden on his side. Atleast thats what i think, they ain't say shit about obama just now. Oh well... " Nevermind what haters say, ignore them 'til they fade away. "
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let me do you a favor,
i'll ask the sun to shine away from you today... so you can cry.
i'll ask the clouds to bring the rain for you today... so you can cry
if that's what you want.
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i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. fuck your faceeee bitches. -tianna.
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" You've become my crutch, a drug " it's weird, ckuz like all that's on my mind right now... is her & what she's doing. I don't know why, she just is. I wrote a song, but i didn't really recite it or none of that ckuz i was in a good conversation with the two white girls and D in class today. None of us read the pages we we're pose to read for the class, so we we're in the clueless... tryna skim and answer the questions. I like that class, all we've done is disccussed things mostly. She talks too much though, she stands up there and waste 30 minutes talk, give us 40 minutes to talk... then let us go ckuz she gets too caught up talking to students. I like it, math & CPT 101 tomorrow. 101 is way easier than the 176... i don't know what i'm doing, i don't know what to say... blah. I'm just in a confused mind state right now. My finger is swollen and it hurts.. i guess it'll go away in a day or something. Someone tell tianna to get the fuck out of my head. i'm getting a headache... i was hot, but this fan behind me cooled me down since the AC wanna be gay and not cool MY room like a lil faggot. I'll prolly have more to say later... for now i'm done. stay up!
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" let's just be.. " smh @ thinkin i care about any of these females. truthfully, none of 'em cross my mind twice but i guess they shouldn't cross my mind at all. i feel wrong... but why ? idk, just don't like making tianna mad or anything like that when it concerns another female that i don't even feel for like that. I don't wanna lose something i've grown attached too, over anybody. fuckit.. she never told me she didn't want me to be on the phone with other people late at night. I'm use to it, always do it... guess i'll have to just go to sleep and start ignoring phone calls. Why do i care so much about it ? i have no idea... but this soda or w/e it was, left a strange taste in my mouth. I'm bout to drink some water, get a black and relax. " just my girl & me... doing whatever "
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" she's so much better than me " i'm not a bit tired, and i'm sittin on the floor infront of this laptop that's sittin in this chair. Why i ain't in bed ? ckuz i decided to lean it again the wall even though i wasnt here all day. I was out going everywhere.. went to take moms around town, got subway while she got mcdonalds. I actually waited for my g-ma at the doctor for almost 2 hours... its was mad boring. I seen my buddy there, the nurse that flirted with me while i was there... yeah her. she didn't really flirt with me, but played in my dreads and kept askin me why i had girl features.. like my eyes, eyebrows, skin, and was just fuckin with me. uhh, typin is hurtin my finger, i think its infected. " i'm so unworthy of her, why does she stay ? "
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" so close, but so far... " so yeah, i seem to keep bloggin. i'm sittin here on the floor, too lazy to move right now... too lazy to even bother to try and pump this stupid shit up again, i would text tianna.. but most likley she won't answer. so if i have nothing to by 5:00, i'm a just go to sleep or something, i couldn't get to sleep for SHIT lastnight... i was mad pissed too, ckuz i woke up at 5, then again at 7:20, then finally at 8:28 i jumped up and got in the shower and got dressed. I changed about 4 times, ckuz i knew long pants was going to be too hot.
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i'm startin to feel horrible again. my stomach was hurtin, i got chills.. keep coughin, you could hear the cold in my chest and shit. I need to get rid of this cold completely. but, today... was cool so far. lena wanted to talk to me, so i talked to her for a while and eventually fell asleep... woke up like actually sleepin on the floor. I actualy FELT the floor. So yeah, i took all the air out of this lil bed or w/e you want to call it and now its on the floor, it'll take too much energy to try and pump the bullshit back up so fuck it, it'll stay like this but uhh, yeah... sat on the car after my 2nd class and finish smokin my black, i'm mad D was drivin a station wagon and shit. but yeah, i'm riding home singing the dream i love your girl, mad loud... old lady at the red light was lookin at me weird and shit. that's okay, i'm glad she enjoyed my singing<3
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" where would i be without you ? " so yeah, VMAs just went off... shit ended quick, i swear i thought it JUST came on like at 10 or somewhere round that time. I don't know, maybe it was just me... lol @ kid rock performance having wayne rapping to his shit. I think that shit was freestyled, thinkin it would hype it up more. I dont know, dont' care... and yeah... i'm bout to smoke a black and go to sleep. I got school in the am. I should enjoy my day and then be back to blog if i don't blog at school... i don't think i have that class so i doubt i will. i think i got 176 today and english, i THINK. and i got math and 101 on tuesdays and thursday. " i'm feelin all superhuman, she did that to me "
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fuck yolee, ibi's cool uhh, i moved shit around and stuff... i had to do my bed all over. I got one of those blow up beds, shits a king... and i layed on it when i was in DE so i decided to go out and spend some money for one just to be comfortable and stuff. So yeah, i think i already got a hole in it... fuck it, ill buy another one maybe. i cooked, HELP cook with the moms and watched my nephew... that niggah FINALLY took his bad ass to sleep, he gone sleep through the night and prolly wake up when i get up to go to school. I'm glad school's 4 hours long, barley that ckuz they let us out early. I did my homework and i feel ok about that ckuz i been skippin it i'm bumpin that old ja rule, that niggah's still my favorite regardless of what 50 did to his career and that he still sings on his songs. She had maddd hits from his albums and then the rest of the album prolly sounded like shit, thats with alot of rappers though. & once again FUCK YOLEE " i'm convinced, she's my down ass bitch " oh yeah, arayah... all that shit i was talkin to you about early... ignore it. It was bullshit, i just wanted to see if you would've do it not plus someone put me up to it & i was a bit scared for mylife much love big titted bitch <3
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" i'm so self-centered, i won't even share this cancer "
so, i still got this cold in me. everytime i breathe, i can hear it and that shit is annoying me. lol @ trey and his girlfriend problems... so cute. but yeah, in other news i feel like passing out again, even though i've had enough sleep. i woke up, to a flipped screen this morning. i guess i slept on my computer and press some buttons that flipped my screen i guess. I got mad ckuz i couldn't flip it back... i finally got it though.
but yeah, in other news... i got shit to do today. i'll blog later
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" ELLO HANNA "
she's right down the street from us and stuff. Ike looks like a beast son, shit was at 145 and wasn't no where near land yet. They usually don't build up wind speed until they hit, but god damn... that niggah was 145. I know a few mean ike's, so i already know ike is gonna fuck somebody UP. wherever they go, they gone fuck em up. I'm tired and stuff... i need some medicine. This morning i coughed up a bunch of cold and sit it out. shit was nasty, but glad i got it out. Sneezed some out too, just wanna get all this cold out me so i can enjoy the rest of my weekend SHIT.
i got school in 2 days and i can't enjoy my days off... ain't that some bull ? but moms gotta go to the doctor in Columbia next friday, and i gotta call dentist people monday and uhh, i gotta do that homework that i been was pose to do. it's nothing hard just go around and ask people questions about "what a educated person is" i got that class monday i think. I like my math & my english class... my CPT classes are good too, ckuz there easier then i thought they would be.
" uh, nappy heads in the houseeee "
so yeah, whatever faggots... my legs hurtin and shiznit, i can't wait til 2:40 man, that's like 2 hours away i think... nah like a hour and 40 minutes. man so what, i'm thirsty and stuff, its going to rain allllll day and all night, it SHOULD pull out about around sometime tomorrow morning. my niggah marques rode by us today, i swear i thought that niggah went up north. I could've sworn he dipped after he got expelled. Shit was funny, his brother was throwin down with some dude, idk why... and he ran over when they went inside and was knockin heads OFF, foreal. Shit was mad funny. But it's cool.
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" i love your girl "
i'm still sleepy, but i'm wide awake right now. I think in a few hours i'm a have to wake up... so after i finish talkin to bee punk ass i'm a take me a nap or whatever. i'm watchin monk, and his episode on the pane or whatever. i'm about to try and catch me some shut eye in a minute. i'll be back later or whatever... hannah should be here tomorrow, or today, saturday morning ish. not exactly here... but the rain and shit should be here and shit.
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i don't want to live no more.
i'm doing okay. i can get through it regardless, this cold is botherin me still. my throat hurtin and shit, my noise is botherin me and shit... fuck. three can play that game is on, im feeling liek this is gonna be dumb and shit.. but idk, it might be better then i think. i'm a dip though, i'll holler faggots.
fuck it, fuck you, fuck life, fuck everything.
it's like that.
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" i don't give a FUCK again "
seriously though, fuck you all. i'm sittin here sick and the ONLY person that actually ain't getting on my god damn nerves is ibi (yolee's friend) i mean, talkin to me and ain't making me mad. Niggahs either don't want to answer, calling me shit. tianna stupid ass want to act stupid, fuck her, fuck lena, fuck all of you. i don't need none of you, don't fuck with me no more.
Its done. & I'm done, i'm bout to get some medicine and try and take my ass to sleep. Tomorrow, i don't want ONE message from any of you damn tricks, leave me the fuck be. don't ask me what's wrong, nothings wrong. I'm straiiiiiiiiiiiight
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" she shoots me with happiness... and I bleed joy "
so i got this bad cold... shit bothers me. i dk if it's a cold or its my allergies botherin me, but i feel horrible. i need some medicine, i think i almost OD earlier. I felt mad weak, almost fell over and shit, idk what was going on. Im good now, but damn i thought i was gone pass out or something. i'm good now. i'm doing good, tryna hide all i'm going through but other then whats going on, i'm straight. like moms could be sick, hopfully she ain't and she pull through.
I need to get a check, to see if i'm healthy no matter how scared i am of hearing what kind've sickness i may have or some shit. I be having chest pains, all type of pains... but being me, i shake em off and not say shit about 'em. I'm the stubborn, i tell myself i'm a say something about something and never say anything just ckuz i don't want to. Even when someone tells me i should.
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" your girl know how i beat it like a flat drum "
okay, i wet my wifebeater up, filling up my Gatorade bottle for tomorrow. It's weird, i be hesitating to do homework, like i should be reading my CPT book... chapter 2 for the test, chapter 7 can wait or whatever, but i'm a get to reading chapter 2 so i can sleep with it in my head and wake up with it deeply in my membrane. I KNOW that makes no sense, but its my excuse for studying so late. I'm too lazy for this college shit man.
i think i'm a study now, home improvement might take my attention away from the book. PLUS my lights off so i can barley even read anything, but fuck it... i'm bout to get to studying and shit. i'll holler & iono why jeanri jockd my quote before my blog thing. it's cool... SHE CAN HAVE THAT
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" i hope this ego trip you on won't last honey"
idk why i get sleepy so early now, shit is gonna have to stop. but shit, i was mad tired today in class. I was in my classes, sitting behind the computer textin/argue'n with tianna and at the same time falling asleep.
I prolly need to take a nap or some shit. Hannah should be hitting round thursday, they say it should come here, if it comes here then idk what we're doing.. hopfully it ain't as bad as hugo... they said hugo was terrible and took our house and fuck that. WE MIGHT go up north, but i ain't sure right now. give me a day or two, i should know. My leg is hurtin and it's 12:02, i should've called my moms 2 minutes ago... but i'm too busy writing. that's whack, i'll be back to write more maybe. bbl
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" i respect a woman, but this bitch is ckrazy.. "
i'm so fuckin' cold right now & i should really be turning this fan off. Its not that cold in here, but still man. I complain when it's cold and then when its hot i get mad ckuz i can't sleep. Idk what i want, it's confusin.. i know. my finger hurt from the cut yesterday.. so peace.
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" don't you have a man ? " i just wrote a whole long ass blog and i felt it didn't look write on my blogspot so i'm writing a shorter one just to snatch that long shit off the main shit. i'm about to hit up myspace and my music sites before this internet decides it wants to cutt of on me and piss me the fuck off. lol @ char pulling a old head, WDF dude 21 fuckin with a 16 yr old.. niggah you a fuckin gimmick gtfon. i'll be damn if i KNOW a broad is 16 and i still try to get with her. not even NOW, i feel like that's way too outtah rang. 17 is cool.. so RED, DANIELLE... fuck both of ya'll young lie'n broads. i keep bringing ya'll up ckuz of that lame ass lies. its just the internet, your real lives must be shitty diamond tits are beautiful, she needs to get actually man and not none of them niggahs that be fuckin with her and then just dip when they get tired of her. but... i'm a go and listen to this old shit we recorded in my cousin booth - peace.
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" is anything I'm doing brand new ? " yeah, madd nervous ckuz moms about to have surgery.. i ain't get NO sleep last night. was up til 5:30, kept getting up and shit smoking the black. i wanna smoke a black now, but niggahs in this house gone keep track of me and ain't gone let me out there site, as well as my sister i guess i'll wait til i get back home til i smoke my lungs away. i only went to one class, the boring class. i promise you, i was in the back falling asleep... broads chucklin in my ear and shit, i got mad for a second ckuz i'm tryna rest. but the class eventually ended. " It seems like everything I do, your used to it " had HELL with my nephew in the hospital early, i was madddd as fuck with that lil niggah. now i'm in here with Q & D, this niggah q be on that whack hiphop.. i gotta put him on everytime i come here. niggah can't SLEEP on budden though. the nurse at the hospital looked about 27-30, but jesus her light brown eyes had me.. and she kept walking through the waiting room back and forth. but yeah, my day was okay... kind've bad. had a few bad moments that i was pissed at. i'm bout to spend broke on stupid shit too. i'm a do it just for moms though, plus she MIGHT be sick so she signed my name on her car... gave me her safe card and her number for it incase she be too sick. i HATE when she talk like that.. making it seem like something's gonna happen to her. that shit makes me madd nervous, like i cant have ANYTHING happen to her ckuz i'm a really be lost if that shit happens. so pray for the best, i will... everyone else in the family will so for those who care a least a lil bit, do that for me you make me smileeeeeeeeeee, with my heartt. i'm about to go into the living room and see what my family doing and what my nephew is doing. i'm a download some intrsumentals while i'm up late tonight, knowing i won't be able to sleep at ALL. and i swear i'm writtin alot right now, WHY ? idk. tianna just popped into my head, i ain't get to talk to her bitch ass earlier ckuz i was on my phone on yahoo and i wasn't paying it no attention so yeah. her bitch ass needs a phone or some shit before i get pissed and piss on somebody. " Is this gonna last ? Your up on a pedastal, are we moving too fast ? Feel like I'm in crazy competition with the past.. " lmaoooo @ this niggah burning all these freestyles, maddd freestyles of him, my cousin dubb, d, larry, breeze. yo... shit is maddd old but i remember these shits. that was when rapping was fun, and you know we did that shit for entertainment and shit.. now niggahs in the booth slave'n it. i ain't with that, i'm a work a mixtape though, writing a few tracks as we SPEAK to no beats though. that's all i need is beats from cousin and i'll go in and actually have a FEW mixtapes written. " Tell me baby, am I too late ? "
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so im not paying my teahcer any attention at all and shes making jokes that aren't even funny. im glad im in the back of the class with the women. I keep scratching my ankle and I know its ashy but it feels like ants are sttacking me and shit. i'll leave
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" tell me it's real.. " so my laptop won't last for 2 seconds (meaning it was about to die, but i charged it) and i'm really hot right now. i think i'll get up and turn the AC on high as it can go and then jump in the shower and pack for tomorrows trip and then smoke my black. what trip ? moms having surgery tuesday like i said before so, i'm a leave today and MIGHT come back after the surgery to go to school. i skipp school monday and tuesday, only got to one of my classes tomorrow so that's why i'm kind've happy or whatever. but i'm a go now and be on my way. " it's a sepcial way i fold my flag " i'm packed, and i smoke the black that got my stomach hurtin now... idk why, but it does now and i gotta upload a bunch of songs on my ipod & nano right now for the trip... even though its like 2 days i'm packing all this shit like i'm a be gone for a WHILE. i'm wylin, but i'm a watch a movie til i fall alseep. even though i won't get sleepy til madd late and i'm startin to feel like i gotta shit, that should releave me and relax me. this fan is cooling me down so fuck the AC. and home improvement is really entertaining right now.. george lopez need to hurry up and come on " don't stay to keep me happy, stay ckuz you're happy "
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hello tianna here. iuno why i decided to blog up in this shit but while im hereeee. i already know that most of you dont like me lol. no need to broadcast it to the world , youll be alright. take that stick out your ass. goodday. in the mean timeee , jarell i hate you. :) aw.
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" i give you my all, but it seems like that's not enough " i don't care though, nephew's with mom so he should be good until the AM... i'm bout to watch FOOLS GOLD until i pass out, might text a few people if i can't sleep, might end up watchin 21 i dk but yeah... night.
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" please exscuse my hands.." i'm tired o my nephew, had him ALL fuckin day. from the time when i woke up to now, well i had 2-3 hour break to watch a lil tv, BUT guess who ruined my alone time my sister bored ass. she stuck in the hospital until her sugar goes down which looks like until saturday, or sunday, they asses don't know. i had a horrible weekend, had to wake up early and all this gay shit.. and THEN next week i won't be doing shit BUT shopping and doing all that other shit FOR my moms. so yeah, ckuz she has surgery tuesday pray for her, i know i will regardless who doesn't. i hope it don't be as bad as they making it seem. her kemo that is, hope it goes good and shit. but yeah, i'm a relax and smoke this black. badboys II on, time to finish watchin this and then listen to some music. some lloyd, ne-yo... SOME soothe'n r&b music foreal. i need some good music to calm me down and chill me out. SHIT LIKE THAT, fuck the rest of ya'll. friday is suppose to be enjoying or whatever. tianna needs to find her way to me.. i'm tired of waiting to she sign on or some shit, she needs a fuckin phone foreal. " i can change your life, if you let me... "
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" backseat action, out in the middle of traffic " so, i like fell asleep with my nephew, trying to put him to sleep once moms got him. she got him now, i'll sleep GREAT tonight, i should be sleep right now but i left tianna a message. i THINK that's her phone... oh well if it isn't. i called it two nights in a row and she ain't say shit about it or neither has the person called me back so whatever. my eyes are gettign heavy.. time to get off and watch some george lopez cuzzo " I'm so closeee, I can feel it... " and the song with jennifer hudson and tpain that is playing is not homo... so fuck all ya'll that have ya'll comments foreal. the song is heat to me, why ? idk, jennifer just has that voice that i'm in love with, as well as beyonce but its just her voice gets my boxers wet and you know... i can sit and listen to her sing. Dream girls put me on her though - i'll leave. but yeah, i'm feelin horny and all that good shit tonight. why ? idk, just a feeling that shot over me so quick. that mizztwerkemsome chick is bad from the back, i wonder if she's ugly " Bodies touchin... lips kissin, holdin tight, sweat drippin'... i can feel you all over me, heart racin' - your ridin', i'm cummin'... can't fight it ! "
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" I give you my all, just holla at me if you want more " so, i'm fuckin dizzy and shit, eyes prolly red ckuz of the smoke or whatever. i'm watchin one on one, this channel showed EVERY show i been wondern where it went... went from jamie foxx, to wayan brothers to one on one now... i wonder whats coming on next. who cares ? i do, ckuz i got nothing else to do ckuz i gotta babysit for the next three days until this niggah jj get home from working. i need sometihng to drink... XXL still sendin me magizines, i need to send them that 24 dollars to get another 2 years worth or whatever but i be slackin. i GET the money then forget about the books and spend the money on other shit. it's crazy but its whatever... i'm mad it was so cold today even though i love winter so yeahh " OH! - you not feelin me? Fine... it cost you nothin - pay me no mind " niggahs be thinkin my motorola q a blackberry, might as well be. looks like one but its better yenno ? lol @kenyatta having a kid. alllllllll these bitches in class showing off there kids... " yeah, look at my boo boo shabonka " my throat is hurtin right now, and i don't want to eat no spaghetti and i had some subway, shit was greattt. i need to stop smoking too, i don't want to die from cancer or whatever that shit ain't cool with me. i need my lungs man! somebody help me quit, i don't need to smoke! my nephew won't stay asleep. he'll wake up every 10-20 minutes, sit up and stare at where he was laying and look around rubbin his eyes THEN cry. and he JUST started moving right when i typed that. let me shut up. i'm a watch this show, smoke this black and watch this movie. i haven't talked to tianna punk ass in a while, well yesterday but it was like two seconds of hi.. sup type shit, i see i'm a have to stop being mean and rude to her and all that sorts of shit. i'm a go though... had to mention that dyke before i log off and listen to this gay ass cd jennifer hudson.. PEACE! " She do anythin' necessary for him & I do anythin' necessary for her "
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i don't respond to a sublime, it ain't hurt that much... so i watched vantage point and lewan was right, that shit is annoying but was okay. i just hated the fact they just couldn't let the movie play out, they had to rewind it everytime it got close to finding something new out. my hair itchin like a bitch.. which means i need a good wash. i guess i'll do that in the AM, wash this shit and get dressed. morgan tellin me bout how she columbian and egyptian.. that's cute.. er body wanna be "jamacian, black, rican" but yeah, nobody ever told me they were mixed with anything but those three so you know... moms want her tv lol, so i gotta get up earlier. i hope she get it though, she got the money for it.. she just can't lift it so that's where i come in at yenno ? i mean she can get somebody to tote it out the store if i gotta be in school... i'll be back to write more " ARE YOU IN THAT MOOD YET ? " this niggah jay be on his deep shit in his blogs, i think i'm a start back fucking with his posts, all these other niggahs blogs be all short and boring... thats the reason my blogs went from paragraphs to a paragraph, two if your lucky.. i got lazy.. fuck it though. i'm leave that venting shit for the boy james though, i don't want all you niggahs in my life ckuz i ain't tryna get the bullshit comments, ESPECIALLY jeanri bitch ass.. & yeah this is my third time editin this, i need to just let this post be and start a new one but i don't want to so fuck that i'll just add on to this blog until 12:00. This MM2 is killing me tonight.. joe budden made my night with that song though " i don't wanna catch no FEELINGS, but ma you can jump off a buildinnng, tonighttt " foreal, do that PEACE " I'm somewhere between the real and the fakeness "
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" eye threw the scope, incase my fo's at the top of that stair way to heaven. " my arm is hurtin, this joe budden freestyle is sick... i'll holler. FUCK ALLTEL, they told me them storage cards costed like 9.99 but i get there... "39.99" BITCH I NEED THIS MONEY FOR some blacks, and some other bullshit i'm a throw it away with. fuck alltel foreal though... HOLLER " never cared, i was careless, feared being afriad or maybe i'm afriad to be fearless or feared being fearless, but fearful...so even in my carelessness, gotta be careful "
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" momma loved me, pops i miss you... god help me forgive him i got some issues " so, i'm sleepy & i skipped english today but atleast i had a reason. moms & sister was at the hospital so i swung by there to pick them up even though they wasn't ready, i was glad i got out of that class. I know she was gone talk my ears to death so i made sure i seen her before class. kenyetta big ass head, swear she went from rollin her eyes at me to smilin at me, starin all up in my face waiting for me to say something. her friend she walked in and out of class with was cute, but broad was maddd boney. i mean, she was all bones but i guess if that what them white boys into. " there apart of the list, things that i miss "
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you niggahs couldn't touch the broads i choose... i swear, i need to turn joe budden off... too many quotes from this niggah that i re-use. making me write more blogs just so i can add a quote with the post and shit. this superman is gay, seeing it too much you already know what's going to happen and shit. i can quote everything from this movie as it happen, weird shit. i'm a leave though.. " still turning down pussy, you get too many offers "
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" i know about snakes, ckuz i use to deal with em" a niggah just get up like 1 hour or so what ago, feelin wide away but i still want to go back to sleep. ain't shit for me on a sunday but to sit around and watch movies. all these movies on tv are lame and old i don't feel like laying here watchin them shits. i might go get me a box of blacks after i empty my bank account IF my moms let me do that. I don't even know how much i got in that bitch... fuck it i'm a still hit up the atm and get me a box of blacks, prolly a blunt or some shit. i'm bout to hit up some movies that i downloaded last night, a niggah been tryna download a movie for a good 5 days, shit still ain't done. " matter of fact i ain't gone say shit, ONE OF YOU LIL NIGGAHS SAY SOMETHING AGAIN, I SWEAR TO GOD, i'm sendin my lil niggah to holler at ya'll " "i feel like everybody around me is a fuck up.. "
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" what niggahs mad for ? " looooooool, this song been on repeat for the past 10 minutes. " i told ma, i ain't the dude that you get to knoww, and if i take you out then its just for show " i had to smoke my black and take a break from this song... song is too funny. this niggah budden made my night foreal, i gotta get up on some more of his songs.. but yeah, aaliyah bout to put me on some more old tracks. she in denial she a groupie, we all know the truth. Well all those who know her/of her would know that she's his number one groupie. fantasies about the niggah and shit, RELAX LIYAH but yeah, my arm is numb'n the fuck up. shit feels mad weird... bbl " you write a whole paragraph on a text, just hit you back with a smiley face =)" edit - i'm going on my chill mode, yenno ? fuck all the bullshit, i'm just gone chill. i swear i been in and out of alot of shit latley, i'm a just live and focus on making sure nobody stressin my moms out and shit and school. not getting hyped bout nothing, leavin everything alone, puttin shit on pause for the time being. " even if her body make a nig wan eat that bitch you don't make a niggah better... better see fab "
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" it seem a lil strange, she be calling my name... " i'm tired, lol @ dudes in sumter... these niggahs is so lame. how you get mad cause a niggah don't wanna buy your shit. had to leave since cedric wasn't answerin his fuckin phone. i gotta chill with that niggah one weekend. and uhh, this joe budden mixtape is kinda booty being that majority of it looks like a bunch of songs i already seen and a bunch of skits. hoopz lil sexy ass on flavor of love.
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"no stress. love. live life. proceed. progress... " i'm mad i just get in and inna few i gotta leave again, well prollyy a hour away but still... like inna minute i gotta move some shit around and all that good shit. atleast i get my phone, and shit i'm straight. I ain't worried bout a damn thing.. sittin here watchin set it off. The good part is coming on now, they robbin there last bank and shit. i'm about to get up and go though. ol girl from that other movie in the car b bleedin bad, about to die and shittt. sad part when she dies. first time i seen this, i fell in love. specially the end where everybody dies and she's somewhere in mexico and that song comes on... let me go put my food up and play with me phone until i gotta get up and move shit around. brb
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" fuck the world, fuck my moms and my girl " lol, yeah im done. she gave me a reason not to give two fucks anymore. fuck it, fuck her.. fuck it all. its donee. in better news last night was a great night. I got my motorola q today. that's what im on now... peace. " well maybe not my moms, just let me remain calm "
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" they shootin! * pilar: either way i stand by what i said * pilar: she chased anthony & he aint want her * pilar: she just needs someone * pilar: p o i n t b l a n k * pilar: and id mention lena * pilar: but * pilar: you know * pilar: i dont wanna get you in trouble * pilar: ask her why her and anthony dont talk no more * jarell.: who, tianna ? * pilar: mhm * jarell.: ok * pilar: and it aint about me knowing her entire life, anthony tells me everything * pilar: she thinks people care about her lol pilar: lena fucking her man * pilar: and im just his homie * pilar: you can blur that out * jarell.: nah, i'll add it * pilar: and edit my words * pilar: to form what you like * pilar: LMAO * pilar: you gonna let her know lena fucking you? * jarell.: niggah i don't fuck w/ lena no more uh, made you look.. "
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" niggahs crack under pressure, me ? i relax under pressure " i'm cooling it and shit, idk what tianna talkin bout.. lol @ her losing her phone though. i gotta get my bread up and go get my phone tomorrow. that shit is 200 off top, then i SHOULD get that 100 back and shit after i send some letter to them people, get my brother to put the phone on. help moms to go get her tv and shit and all this other shit. smartguy's on, i haven't seen this show in a whileeee. idk why they startin to put it back on tv... it's cool. they need to throw martin back on tv. He need to do a new tv show, martin's that niggah. but yeah, i'm sittin here light headed... stomach hurtin and cold as fuck i think i'm a chill until 8 - the time nikki bring her ass home. like, i'm a really start saving instead of throwing money away. Now that i'm seeing niggahs in this house bringing mony home and gone start paying me for petty shit, like owin me... just paying me ckuz i looked out for them whenever or just watchin my nephew. you already know i'm a save all that, THEN on top of that i'm a try and get me a settle job. I don't need one as of now, but still... i love money. oh & the college finacial aid check came back so yeah " pirate skulls & bonessss " edit - lol @ niggahs trying me and shit, like is that what you really want ? niggahs think that's a good idea, smh if you don't go kill yourself motherfucker. i'll be back later though and i'm kinda mad i ain't get to talk to my chick inna minute and shit. i'll be okay... peaceee
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" rell had to get the shallow shit up off him... " so today was straight, jessica being loud and country as ever in class making everybody look at her everytime she yelling to the teacher ckuz she don't understand some shit. she's cool though, uhh.. that class was boring. Took a quiz, that most likley i failed but i'll get it so yeah. i'm sittin here watchin this family... forgot the name of it but yeah with the bald head wayan brother and the bright bitch from martin... i don't be remember names and shit. When u could look in the mirror like "There I am"
And still not see... what you've become
I know I'm guilty of it too but, not like them
nephew sittin here botherin me, niggahs came over... dropp him over and left again, how they know i wasn't sleep or something ? fuckin faggots. but yeah, i'm a go. oh yeah, all you niggahs with the slick shit to me that i don't pay attention to, or got some kinda hate towards... fuck ya'll niggahs <3 mucho love. " niggahs is brainless to unnecessarily go through these changes "
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shake up the world, that is what i'm about to do... fuck the world.
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" i be the boss of that, i'm on her shit " just called moms and she's like right down the street, coming home from work. i got something in my eye but it ain't hurtin that bad, i'll rub them til they turn red so i ain't gone fuck with em right now. I got cpt and math tomorrow... hopfully it be just something i fly through like today. My english class is so easy. She'll talk our ears to death, give us an asignment and then be letting us out 20 to 30 minutes early to go work on the assignment knowing most of us don't do it, like me... i left out that bitch and went straight to the house. family matters is boring, my albums is download & i'm downloading more porn, so fuck ya'll.
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" you ain't gotta jock me homie, jock my chick " tonight is a good night, breakin all the rules just went off... i forgot about that movie, good movie indeed. i'm watchin rush hour right now but i guess i'm a just watch hellboy tonight before i go to sleep. T mobile still on that BS, my text messages ain't working. I need some money to buy me a box of blacks so i can finish killing my lungs. these bitches be on some other shit though, lol. it's all oodles and noodlesss. i don't give a fuck no more, i don't care no more not only about that, but alot of shit i been puttin to the side. so fuck it, fuck all ya'll and if you don't know if i'm talking about you... just ask. i'll tell you. bitches got madd salty after i got with tianna, fuck is wrong with broads ? - ya'll gone be okay, i promise " that's alright, you hate us.. its NOTHING "
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" tell me another lie " the roof of my mouth is itchin' and shit, i think i'm getting a ear infection. i'm watching this jamie foxx movie... i remember but then i don't. its like that " two can play that game " shit, with Morris Chestnut black ass. this water is good, and i had a okay day at school... that english class is wild, all the reading, dicussin' and shit like that is killing me. The essays are nothing, i love writing... i sit and write til my hand cramp up, just by writing pages of pages of rhymes and shit. i sat by kenyettah ass before class started, went to bother her big ass head. she sittin there rolling her eyes. i mean, i've seen how people simply roll there eyes... but no, she gotta blink her eye lashes with it. like wooow. i'm mad, i miss a day of school and ain't miss SHIT. I go back to class, they telling me i ain't miss shit and i'm thinkin i'm a have to catch up... man gtfon. I gotta do my math quiz today, and then do the homework even though it all ain't due until the 30th. MY PHONE WONT LET ME TEXT, so if u texted me anytime today, and i didn't respond its ckuz t-mobile bitch ass acting gay. I can't send messages and shit, that's some booty shit. My aunt pose to check it out when she home i think inna hour or two. " i don't want to know what i know to be true what i need you to do... tell me another lie "
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" why does she stay ? "
bored as hell in my first class right now, i'm suppose to go see my teacher to get the questions i missed and shit but i'm too lazy to look for the computer labs and shit, so i'll go after i get out of my 2nd class. i'm on allhiphop, tryna sign on.. but i can't remember passwords like that. tianna says she's gonna draw something for me... how sweet right ? i know... gtfo. this chick in this class used to go to crestwood, her ass is just huge and beautiful, but she's so black.. oh well. i'll blog later..
peacee
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" that you want me, when you had me
love is crazy, now I can smile and say...
i can't get to sleep, i haven't talked to tianna tonight.. i don't think i'll get to sleep peacefully. its almost 3:00 and i got a headache... well not really. I took two pills and i finish homework... I think i'll turn this cpu off and try and get some shut eye for school tomorroww. i need some knowledge and shit. Will smith is keeping me up and shit... let me turn the channel or something
" ain't that funny "
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" shake up the world, that is what i'm about to do " okay, yeah... i forgot to blog today. I skipped my one class today... i was going to hop up and just toss on my dickies and a white t and stuff. I didn't even feel like moving at all. I was just gone slip on my bedroom shoes, toss the book in my bookbag and dippp. But i couldn't get up for SHIT. I took some pills and slept all through the day. I'm sleepy now, but i KNOW i won't get no sleep. Sister took my phone... the only entertainment i'd have without this lame computer and my nephew is knocked out beside me and shit.. he'll wake up soon and annoy me even more..I ain't ready for that. I just wanna go to school and stuff so i'll blog later " homie yeen even on my altitude "
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" it was all good, just a week ago " tomorrow needs to hurry up and come, i'm too anxious. i just can't stand this white chicks accent, she talks too fuckin much, short ass. niggahs that attend live like 40 minutes away frm the school. wdf ? idk. i get annoyed easily & quickly so, don't bug me about simple shit. i ain't tryna hurt feelings. today, idk.. i just felt good & was in a good mood. prolly tianna, prolly just because i ain't stressin' bout shit... but its funny, people change so quick its weird, but i'll leave it be.
" it's funny what, seven days can change "
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" i can change your life, if you let me " so, inna minute i will really start reading. i hit my finger on a bunch of things today...mom kept yelling "BOY BE CAREFUL, YOU MIGHT GET IT CUTT OFF" i can't dodge everything, its my hand... i don't pay attention to where and what my finger hit. But ohwell, i'll be devastated if they cut it off. I can't have that. I'm a start on my english homeworm then tomorrow night i guess i'll do my math homework and my math quiz. It shouldn't be that hard, i should zip right through it. my arm is hurtin now, i bought another bed today.. this should be good for a couple weeks. I'm a take care of it this time though. I get annoyed and bored quick, idk why.. but i noticed that today. I stayed home today, it was an okay day... i'm just mad tomorrow i go back to school, it's just one class.. i know but GOD " i know what you're used to, & i can show you something that's better... "
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" quit the games " its almost one... i got pain in my am, the feeling in my finger seems like its coming back and i can barley type ckuz this damn index finger is wrapped up. I'm sittin here watchin tuxedo and shit. It's a good movie.. i already seen it but yeah, nothings else on tv I guess i'll watch meet dave til i fall asleep and shit... I'll blog tomorrow or something, i'll talk to you faggots later.
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"don't you everr get to comfortableeee" i'm tired, i think the pain in my finger is coming soon.. its numb now and i think i'ma overdose tonight, i was going to last night but luckily i feel asleep. Yolee & ibi bitch asses fuckin' with me over the phone right now.. i hate these two, they love me though ALWAYS CALLING ME, but yeah.. i spent my whole day at the hospital, walmart gettin medicine, all around sumter with a SORE arm and a numb finger that was bleedin on and off. THEN tianna didn't text me at all, and decide to call 52 mins ago... while i was in the shower. i'm a relax.. fuckthisinternet. "if you wanna leave, be my guest." editi feel like, well actually i don't know WHAT to feel, know what to think.. i'm just gone do me and shit. i dont know what's going on around me anymore. shits like all fucked up and twisted that i don't know left from right, and if left is really right...idk if that makes sense but that's where i'm at right now. so, i'd appreciate somebody to put me back on track, id preciate it.
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what uppppppp, what's happenin all you haters, can get at me... i guess thats what they hatin' for, shit you so damn lame. aight, i'm BACK! i didnt feel like create'n another post so fuck it. Right now, it's freezin in this house, TOO cold. I feel like i should go back outside and sit til 11:00, but nah. I got some homework to do after i pick moms up. I guess i'll bring my laptop along with me, do it while i'm in the car waiting. I was pose to meet up with cedric and them boys earlier but i got caught up at my g-ma house and they called and told me they already left the mall and shit and was going back to the hood so fuck it. i wonder where they moved guccis(name of a club) to. I think they renamed it or something. I put peroxide on my finger... the one that got infected, WOW that shit feels waaaaayy better then it did before. I swear i been puttin it on it for the longest and it never felt this good. & FUCKYOU tianna, i might not even ANSWER my phone when u call back. I'm burning this WA NTED movie over, i gotta throw these dvdrs away and find some more i can burn the rest of these movies on. i'll holler
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" ain't got no time for the haters, just live your life" sup ? my finger feels like hell right now, i try to drain the pus out of it last night, stuck a needle in it... a HOT needle, a pen, anything sharp.. last night i stuck it in my finger. I wanted to use a knife, but that would've prolly hurt. Uh, i got a band aid on it now, just to see if that would make it feel better. It ain't workin. lol @ jae though, swear her actual life must suck. but yeah, tianna being a faggot and i'm sleepy still. I gotta sit in the car for an hour or less i think.. on our way to columbia. I think it's gonna be longer ckuz we're not going to my aunt house, which usually takes about an hour to get to. I gotta register - wevote08.com. I don't feel like registerin though. lol @ mccain having nickoloden on his side. Atleast thats what i think, they ain't say shit about obama just now. Oh well... " Nevermind what haters say, ignore them 'til they fade away. "
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let me do you a favor,
i'll ask the sun to shine away from you today... so you can cry.
i'll ask the clouds to bring the rain for you today... so you can cry
if that's what you want.
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i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. fuck your faceeee bitches. -tianna.
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" You've become my crutch, a drug " it's weird, ckuz like all that's on my mind right now... is her & what she's doing. I don't know why, she just is. I wrote a song, but i didn't really recite it or none of that ckuz i was in a good conversation with the two white girls and D in class today. None of us read the pages we we're pose to read for the class, so we we're in the clueless... tryna skim and answer the questions. I like that class, all we've done is disccussed things mostly. She talks too much though, she stands up there and waste 30 minutes talk, give us 40 minutes to talk... then let us go ckuz she gets too caught up talking to students. I like it, math & CPT 101 tomorrow. 101 is way easier than the 176... i don't know what i'm doing, i don't know what to say... blah. I'm just in a confused mind state right now. My finger is swollen and it hurts.. i guess it'll go away in a day or something. Someone tell tianna to get the fuck out of my head. i'm getting a headache... i was hot, but this fan behind me cooled me down since the AC wanna be gay and not cool MY room like a lil faggot. I'll prolly have more to say later... for now i'm done. stay up!
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" let's just be.. " smh @ thinkin i care about any of these females. truthfully, none of 'em cross my mind twice but i guess they shouldn't cross my mind at all. i feel wrong... but why ? idk, just don't like making tianna mad or anything like that when it concerns another female that i don't even feel for like that. I don't wanna lose something i've grown attached too, over anybody. fuckit.. she never told me she didn't want me to be on the phone with other people late at night. I'm use to it, always do it... guess i'll have to just go to sleep and start ignoring phone calls. Why do i care so much about it ? i have no idea... but this soda or w/e it was, left a strange taste in my mouth. I'm bout to drink some water, get a black and relax. " just my girl & me... doing whatever "
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" she's so much better than me " i'm not a bit tired, and i'm sittin on the floor infront of this laptop that's sittin in this chair. Why i ain't in bed ? ckuz i decided to lean it again the wall even though i wasnt here all day. I was out going everywhere.. went to take moms around town, got subway while she got mcdonalds. I actually waited for my g-ma at the doctor for almost 2 hours... its was mad boring. I seen my buddy there, the nurse that flirted with me while i was there... yeah her. she didn't really flirt with me, but played in my dreads and kept askin me why i had girl features.. like my eyes, eyebrows, skin, and was just fuckin with me. uhh, typin is hurtin my finger, i think its infected. " i'm so unworthy of her, why does she stay ? "
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" so close, but so far... " so yeah, i seem to keep bloggin. i'm sittin here on the floor, too lazy to move right now... too lazy to even bother to try and pump this stupid shit up again, i would text tianna.. but most likley she won't answer. so if i have nothing to by 5:00, i'm a just go to sleep or something, i couldn't get to sleep for SHIT lastnight... i was mad pissed too, ckuz i woke up at 5, then again at 7:20, then finally at 8:28 i jumped up and got in the shower and got dressed. I changed about 4 times, ckuz i knew long pants was going to be too hot.
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i'm startin to feel horrible again. my stomach was hurtin, i got chills.. keep coughin, you could hear the cold in my chest and shit. I need to get rid of this cold completely. but, today... was cool so far. lena wanted to talk to me, so i talked to her for a while and eventually fell asleep... woke up like actually sleepin on the floor. I actualy FELT the floor. So yeah, i took all the air out of this lil bed or w/e you want to call it and now its on the floor, it'll take too much energy to try and pump the bullshit back up so fuck it, it'll stay like this but uhh, yeah... sat on the car after my 2nd class and finish smokin my black, i'm mad D was drivin a station wagon and shit. but yeah, i'm riding home singing the dream i love your girl, mad loud... old lady at the red light was lookin at me weird and shit. that's okay, i'm glad she enjoyed my singing<3
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" where would i be without you ? " so yeah, VMAs just went off... shit ended quick, i swear i thought it JUST came on like at 10 or somewhere round that time. I don't know, maybe it was just me... lol @ kid rock performance having wayne rapping to his shit. I think that shit was freestyled, thinkin it would hype it up more. I dont know, dont' care... and yeah... i'm bout to smoke a black and go to sleep. I got school in the am. I should enjoy my day and then be back to blog if i don't blog at school... i don't think i have that class so i doubt i will. i think i got 176 today and english, i THINK. and i got math and 101 on tuesdays and thursday. " i'm feelin all superhuman, she did that to me "
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fuck yolee, ibi's cool uhh, i moved shit around and stuff... i had to do my bed all over. I got one of those blow up beds, shits a king... and i layed on it when i was in DE so i decided to go out and spend some money for one just to be comfortable and stuff. So yeah, i think i already got a hole in it... fuck it, ill buy another one maybe. i cooked, HELP cook with the moms and watched my nephew... that niggah FINALLY took his bad ass to sleep, he gone sleep through the night and prolly wake up when i get up to go to school. I'm glad school's 4 hours long, barley that ckuz they let us out early. I did my homework and i feel ok about that ckuz i been skippin it i'm bumpin that old ja rule, that niggah's still my favorite regardless of what 50 did to his career and that he still sings on his songs. She had maddd hits from his albums and then the rest of the album prolly sounded like shit, thats with alot of rappers though. & once again FUCK YOLEE " i'm convinced, she's my down ass bitch " oh yeah, arayah... all that shit i was talkin to you about early... ignore it. It was bullshit, i just wanted to see if you would've do it not plus someone put me up to it & i was a bit scared for mylife much love big titted bitch <3
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" i'm so self-centered, i won't even share this cancer "
so, i still got this cold in me. everytime i breathe, i can hear it and that shit is annoying me. lol @ trey and his girlfriend problems... so cute. but yeah, in other news i feel like passing out again, even though i've had enough sleep. i woke up, to a flipped screen this morning. i guess i slept on my computer and press some buttons that flipped my screen i guess. I got mad ckuz i couldn't flip it back... i finally got it though.
but yeah, in other news... i got shit to do today. i'll blog later
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" ELLO HANNA "
she's right down the street from us and stuff. Ike looks like a beast son, shit was at 145 and wasn't no where near land yet. They usually don't build up wind speed until they hit, but god damn... that niggah was 145. I know a few mean ike's, so i already know ike is gonna fuck somebody UP. wherever they go, they gone fuck em up. I'm tired and stuff... i need some medicine. This morning i coughed up a bunch of cold and sit it out. shit was nasty, but glad i got it out. Sneezed some out too, just wanna get all this cold out me so i can enjoy the rest of my weekend SHIT.
i got school in 2 days and i can't enjoy my days off... ain't that some bull ? but moms gotta go to the doctor in Columbia next friday, and i gotta call dentist people monday and uhh, i gotta do that homework that i been was pose to do. it's nothing hard just go around and ask people questions about "what a educated person is" i got that class monday i think. I like my math & my english class... my CPT classes are good too, ckuz there easier then i thought they would be.
" uh, nappy heads in the houseeee "
so yeah, whatever faggots... my legs hurtin and shiznit, i can't wait til 2:40 man, that's like 2 hours away i think... nah like a hour and 40 minutes. man so what, i'm thirsty and stuff, its going to rain allllll day and all night, it SHOULD pull out about around sometime tomorrow morning. my niggah marques rode by us today, i swear i thought that niggah went up north. I could've sworn he dipped after he got expelled. Shit was funny, his brother was throwin down with some dude, idk why... and he ran over when they went inside and was knockin heads OFF, foreal. Shit was mad funny. But it's cool.
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" i love your girl "
i'm still sleepy, but i'm wide awake right now. I think in a few hours i'm a have to wake up... so after i finish talkin to bee punk ass i'm a take me a nap or whatever. i'm watchin monk, and his episode on the pane or whatever. i'm about to try and catch me some shut eye in a minute. i'll be back later or whatever... hannah should be here tomorrow, or today, saturday morning ish. not exactly here... but the rain and shit should be here and shit.
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i don't want to live no more.
i'm doing okay. i can get through it regardless, this cold is botherin me still. my throat hurtin and shit, my noise is botherin me and shit... fuck. three can play that game is on, im feeling liek this is gonna be dumb and shit.. but idk, it might be better then i think. i'm a dip though, i'll holler faggots.
fuck it, fuck you, fuck life, fuck everything.
it's like that.
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i'm in class, sick as fuck.
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" i don't give a FUCK again "
seriously though, fuck you all. i'm sittin here sick and the ONLY person that actually ain't getting on my god damn nerves is ibi (yolee's friend) i mean, talkin to me and ain't making me mad. Niggahs either don't want to answer, calling me shit. tianna stupid ass want to act stupid, fuck her, fuck lena, fuck all of you. i don't need none of you, don't fuck with me no more.
Its done. & I'm done, i'm bout to get some medicine and try and take my ass to sleep. Tomorrow, i don't want ONE message from any of you damn tricks, leave me the fuck be. don't ask me what's wrong, nothings wrong. I'm straiiiiiiiiiiiight
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" she shoots me with happiness... and I bleed joy "
so i got this bad cold... shit bothers me. i dk if it's a cold or its my allergies botherin me, but i feel horrible. i need some medicine, i think i almost OD earlier. I felt mad weak, almost fell over and shit, idk what was going on. Im good now, but damn i thought i was gone pass out or something. i'm good now. i'm doing good, tryna hide all i'm going through but other then whats going on, i'm straight. like moms could be sick, hopfully she ain't and she pull through.
I need to get a check, to see if i'm healthy no matter how scared i am of hearing what kind've sickness i may have or some shit. I be having chest pains, all type of pains... but being me, i shake em off and not say shit about 'em. I'm the stubborn, i tell myself i'm a say something about something and never say anything just ckuz i don't want to. Even when someone tells me i should.
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" your girl know how i beat it like a flat drum "
okay, i wet my wifebeater up, filling up my Gatorade bottle for tomorrow. It's weird, i be hesitating to do homework, like i should be reading my CPT book... chapter 2 for the test, chapter 7 can wait or whatever, but i'm a get to reading chapter 2 so i can sleep with it in my head and wake up with it deeply in my membrane. I KNOW that makes no sense, but its my excuse for studying so late. I'm too lazy for this college shit man.
i think i'm a study now, home improvement might take my attention away from the book. PLUS my lights off so i can barley even read anything, but fuck it... i'm bout to get to studying and shit. i'll holler & iono why jeanri jockd my quote before my blog thing. it's cool... SHE CAN HAVE THAT
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" i hope this ego trip you on won't last honey"
idk why i get sleepy so early now, shit is gonna have to stop. but shit, i was mad tired today in class. I was in my classes, sitting behind the computer textin/argue'n with tianna and at the same time falling asleep.
I prolly need to take a nap or some shit. Hannah should be hitting round thursday, they say it should come here, if it comes here then idk what we're doing.. hopfully it ain't as bad as hugo... they said hugo was terrible and took our house and fuck that. WE MIGHT go up north, but i ain't sure right now. give me a day or two, i should know. My leg is hurtin and it's 12:02, i should've called my moms 2 minutes ago... but i'm too busy writing. that's whack, i'll be back to write more maybe. bbl
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" i respect a woman, but this bitch is ckrazy.. "
i'm so fuckin' cold right now & i should really be turning this fan off. Its not that cold in here, but still man. I complain when it's cold and then when its hot i get mad ckuz i can't sleep. Idk what i want, it's confusin.. i know. my finger hurt from the cut yesterday.. so peace.
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" would you die for me ? "so today started too qui...
" & i'm a die alone, so alone i stand "i don't lik...
" don't worry, about a thing... "- three little b...
" so yeah, she lost one... "get it together or for...
" we all need one, we all need somebody to hold u...
" tell me that you need me, then you go & cut me d...
go to archives to read the blogs, changes are on t...
ROOM FOR IMPROVEMENT"& treatin me like the rest i...
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Do i really have to write this ? If you don't know me, oh well. Go fuck yourself.
The old me is dead & gone...
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