"I ain't as crazy as I seem to be,
it's just that nothin' is the way that is seem's to me.
Im feelin' less then, druggin' him up with anti-depressants,
In essence im threatenin my character assessment
Truth told, I figure a few hoe's
mixed with some new clothes should cover my loop holes.
If I'm misunderstood or mis-guided,
started when they passed the L' said 'just try it' "
- Joe Budden, Angel in my Life
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My name is Jarell & I'm a drug addict. I'd rather be alone, rather then surrounded by familiar strangers. I listen to wayy too much R&B & i hate you all.
done with the bullshit, foreal. but today was lameee. i went EVERYWHERE lookin for padded room and a laptop charger. i'm mad they didn't have SHIT. fuck sumter, i gotta order my charger offline maybe and i gotta call amalgam digital and ask them bout my fuckin order foreal. i just wanted to blog though. i had something say, but now i'm speechless, nothing to write. i was gone write about the tianna situation... but honestly that's a waste of time. like i went through all of that for nothing. so i'll rather forget about it all instead of writtin anything, explaining anything. i left her up on my blog, and on ms and all that, didnt erase her during other break ups ckuz i knew that wasn't the end of it, but i promise you. i'm done this time, she basically put the sheets down... i'm just making the bed, cleaning it up. no need to worry bout THAT anymore. how you gone say i don't care, but i made the attempt to get back with u everytime ? somebody should slap her. blind as hell. but yeah, that's whatever, so.. i'm bout to listen to some budden tracks " relationships are never a threat, i'll erase the history and act like we never met " just saying. but enough about thatttt, alot of shit be en going on, i'm just too lazy to log on here and blog about it.
i talked to ibi for 2 hours, black ass was on the phone with me until somebody called her. i just said fuck it, and talked to ibi all night. mad me and her are like the same. it's crazy, we'd sing the same songs at the same time, say somethings at the same time. make the same noises at the same time. she's like my twin, but not my twin if that makes any sense. but she's real cool, that's like my new bestfriend. i don't know yet, she's real cool though. i never met a person that was like the same as me, beside jeanri... but we're the same in many different ways. that's why we so close, or WAS so close. i hate my laptop foreal, i can't keep it charged for shit. my charger is type stupid. it use to work without me having problems but now it's actin sooooo gay. might just turn it off until i get my charger ckuz this is annoying, foreal. i got a desktop but i'm too lazy. might just MIA it until then. but for now i'm a hit up all my sites, and get the number to call for my motherfuckin CD. i knew i shouldnt have pre ordered that bullshit, joe budden is a dissapointment. how you not have ur cd in every state. like damn, you couldnt get alot of copies out ? we got ur first album and mixtape BUT NO PADDED ROOM ?
nvm, i'm back, charger working better... i had to break something for it to work. not really break anything, but you know... bend it. i might end up sending my computer and charger to toshiba before the warinty expires next month. you know LMAO. send them it and be like it ain't workin right. just break this shit and get a brand new one and a new charger. damn that would be mad smart but i aint cheap. ill just buy me a mac book ckuz the charge last for 8 hours. FINALLY yenno ? a charger that doesnt last a hour and then die out, i hate it. i have to charge it every hour. WHATS THE PURPOSE OF TAKIN IT ON TRIPS ? the trip longer than an hour... you get to play on it for one hour and thats it ? kinda makes no fuckin sense. but yeah. let me unblock this ho, ion why i got mad. I GOT 60 in my pocket, if i find padded room, i'll buy every copy they have. i promise i will. i dont know if i said it before, but i seen starks in walmart, i gotta go listen to the music me him and breezo did. i used to love making music. now my love for it is dying out. i'll still write. MY COUSIN BREEZE GOT AN ASSULT CHARGE. whats wrong with ya'll bitches, claiming some niggah hittin ya'll. i know my cuzzo and he wouldn't beat no bitch down, i mean if u got on my nerves or put ya hands on me then i might do some shit like that but you know... not for no reason. but yeah, it's whack. RIHANNA HAS FUCKED IT UP FOR ITS ALL, but i'll snuff a bitch. ( i'm just kiddin, don't get scared or suspect... i ain't that type of dudeee ) i'm a go though.
i'm a listen to joe budden shit since the shit won't come in the mail. but let me finish talkin to ibi and watchin tv. i think i'm a get some sleep, so i can be up all night and shit. I SKIPPED CLASS, not like we did anything important. i gotta get on my game though. print out some practice tests and get to work yenno ? i'm a impress motherfuckers and stop using people. ckuz i seem to do that alot. i used tia for her practice test to study and ACE test, she get tired of that i know she do but she do it ckuz we cool. people use to do that to me in HS, but i became cool and started cussing niggahs out and doing my own shit. FUCK YALL! my sister should be having the baby soon. sunday or monday, when mom goes back to work. I HOPE THIS ONE IS LIGHTSKINNED TOO, i dont want no dark nephews. i might abuse em. ( i'm KIDDING ) i love my kin, specially my first nephew, that niggah is like my twin so i love him to death. i'm a go. this would've been a big ass paragraph if i connect both like i started to. but i'm not gonna be lazy to make this blog look longer. i'm carrying on though.. hawluh
today, was great. i wanted to go clubbin with the squad, but these niggahs love goin in clubs throwin up sets and shit like sumter ain't full of haters. seem like shit always pop off when i'm round them niggahs so i left that alone. B came through though, i need to get my cake up and take that pistol off his hands though. niggah tryna sell me a shotgun, fuck i'm a put a shotgun ? i need something small. but yeah, today was cool. next weekend, i'm a try my best to head up to rock hill for that homecoming. i'm tryna get pissy drunk and fuck any broad that smiles my way. this niggah wan a cock blocker. we went to KFC and i'm bout to spit game to some girl he talk to cousin... this niggah gone blurt out " HEY SHANETTA " like man gtfon. she wasn't bad, but she was cute, i remember her from highschool i think. she was decent. i hate walmart broads though, they either got the phone to their ear like they talkin to somebody or strutin round like they ain't 16/15. i seen a lightskinned broad today, baddd from the back. seen her face and she was aight, my niggah jeremy i used to record with was walkin with us then. i pointed her out, niggah ran up with his phone out came back quick. " too young " i can't lie, broads can appear old as fuck now a days... but who wants to be old ? i'd rather stay young forever, just to dick down the old broads, and be young enough to dick down the mid way young hos.
bionca read me a poem/something earlier, i liked it. i don't really like poems like that unless they make sense and rhyme, i barley even read poems. and because of her situation, it made sense. lol @ jeanri tellin me she went with trey then hours later this niggah gone say " idk, ask her " how you not know, c'mon bruh. i can't say shit in my blogs no more, niggahs read it and bring it up... it could be something i wrote 2 years ago and i won't win ANY arguements, anything i say they gone pull my blog and hit that older post button. " oh nah, u ain't say that in your blog " i don't mind though. just lets me know somebody reads my shits. i hate writin a bunch and then feel stupid because nobody really reads blogs. i mean, i only read blogs that are intrestin'. if u sittin there carryin on about dumb shit, or whine'n and complaining about a relationship, or something i don't care for, i won't read. i'll skim though.
i thought about the air force, but changed my mind quick. my cousin and brother both ready to leave then B just left from the navy bootcamp and that niggah said it was whack. said it was just like school " studyin part ". LMAO @ not knowing how to swim. niggah said he aint know how to swim and went into the deep pool anyway. niggah pushed him in and he sanked to the bottom and stayed there. i remember doing that. use to go to pools on base with cousins. and be on side of the pool and hold the side and jump up and just drop to the bottom and hold myself down see who could go the deepest and stay tdown the longest. i miss my cuzzo's, it's crazy ckuz my cousin marvin lost like all his brothers and sisters. i can't believe he lost his TWIN though, thats like his other half, his best friend. i couldn't do it. i just can't see if, lost his twin and two brothers. and it all happened all quick like under two years. AND he lost his pops after all that. ckrazy shit. i think i'll die if i lost siblings or parents. i'm the type where when i'm depressed that shit sinks deep and stays for a while. so i honestly think i'd go MIA, and prolly hit up a halfway house, poppin pills somewhere bounce'n off walls.
tomorrow, i'm a hit the mall back up and hit up walmart. i gotta get my nephew a new outfit, get my 2nd nephew some diapers and shit. get my uhhh sister something just ckuz. get me some new shoes, prolly some fuckin j's that i'll wear twice then pack em up and throw em in the cloest and some more clothes. i got a closet full already, but it's crazy when i wake up in the morning and just sit and stare wonderin what i'm a grab out and put on. it ain't like i got a million choices just don't know what to take out. it happens, but i usually solve it by just randomly grabbin some jeans and the rest just follows. but yeah, i'm not sleepy but i think i'll leave. i'm tired of bloggin and nothing really else to type about.
* pulled out the 2001 rap book, i feel like i wrote some hot shit. or atleast had some nice topics, i'm bout to crack this shit open and read some shit i wrote.
i was on imeem and ran into a few old tracks i uploaded, i wish i could find them on my computers man. i gotta hit my cousin up to see if he got 'em. for now... i'll just put this on here to let ya'll listen. idk why i like this track so much then the others.
i don't really like bloggin like that anymore. it's just something about it now that i ain't into. it's basically the no privacy. i mean, there ways i can make my shit private but what's the point ? i'll just make a extra blog or something and keep that to myself. i always try to do that and it never works. idk why, i either never update it or i just stop writin in it and start writin in this. but yeah. i'll blog but won't be nothing personal or deep like i used to do. too many people on blogspot know, i ain't tryna have people i know nothing about knowing my life. no offense though.
right now i'm in class, while er body doing work i'm typin this. i was on CS & myspace but that got boring quick and tianna ain't respond to my text nor my message so fuck her punk ass. she'll text me later or so " no text all day ? " and i'll say something rude back. it's sad i haven't man up yet though. i know what i'm doing and what i'm NOT doing but still i don't change up. i will eventually, i just need some time to get it all together. don't doubt me, be about me baby. i'm mad she assume i be fuckin left to right though, like i'm some ho ass niggah. nahh, mistaken. but why am i sayin it, who's gonna believe me ? i'm either lying, playin too much, never serious... etc. oh well. if she don't believe me, she just won't. i can't sit and try and make someone believe me if they refuse to. i won't fuss and argue about it, it is what it is.
i wanna leave this class, but don't want an absence. i haven't had ONE yet, and i'm a keep it that way just cause. i don't hate class as much as i did LAST semester. mannn, every damn day i would hate to come to class. id miss atleast 3 just ckuz and miss another 4 days to take mom to columbia and back home. good excuse, i know. i got alot of things on my mind though. it's crazy, some things eattin me up, botherin the fuck outtah me and others are just there giving me something to really think about. i tried to stop smokin, but i can't. i will after my last black today, i promise you all. i'm done smokin, i'm done the gang bangin, thuggin bullshit... BEEN done with that just still partial affliated. i'm leaving all that ALONE, school work is gone be my main priority, alone with moms, tianna, gettin a fuckin job, helpin with the bills and all that good shit. i been tryna get a job for a year now, that's crazy. well not really a year, i gave up round christmas... i'm back on it, a lil bit.
Kobe sucks, for all you KB24 fans, i hate ya'll. idk why i posted this video. maybe cause my lil 3 paragraphs wasn't enough so i wanted to add something extra just ckuz. yenno ? solange be on twitter and shit, then she stop twitter'n and i see on thisis50.com she overdosed on nyquil and shit. she'll be aight, she too lightweight to be throwin back pills like that. and SHYNE might be released from jail in april. if so, that shit will be huge. as long as he ain't on his faggot shit, or his " i changed " african bullshit. he come out with some dreads, darker skin and his BIG voice niggah will go 3420 times platinum. ( i'm kiddin ) but foreal, whenever he gets out, it's gonna be crazy. being in that bitch for eight years ? that's a long ass time. for some bullshit, i'd come out JUST to hunt diddy down and knock his ass out. pistol whip him or some shit, go back to jail and do a lil time for that dumb shit but i'll feel better that i got out to do that. yenno ? why do i keep sayin yenno, carmen weird ass got me sayin that. i think i'll end this blog now. it's 2:05, i get outtah here at like 2:30 i think and my next class starts at 2:55, i'll go to he car and listen to some music then go and sit in class and do NOTHING.
new blog, nothing to write about. so i'll post videos. btw, joe budden padded room leaked. im sure EVERYONE has it now. i haven't listened, but i have it. sho ya right.
" pussy's only pussy, i'll get it when i need it "
since my file den shit actin retarded, had to go to the archive and fetch out some of the old ones. i didn't even know i had so many old ones. i be waste'n shit, make 'em and forget about 'em. thank god for notepad. tonight, lame... i didn't do much, just gettin over a sickness and it's gone be slow. i got school i THINK tomorrow. if i go and theres no cars, i'm coming back home. but i think we'll have regular class. it said it on the site, so if not i'll just come home. i gotta get a black when i leave too. gotta go buy a black, maybe a box and some other shit dependin on if i wanna just spend money. i gotta save... lmaoo @ will smith, niggah stupid. i haven't seen bad boys inna while. i seen bad boys II alot, but not the first one. they need to just come on followin the other.
moms sick, went from nephew, sis, me to moms. that's fucked up. hopfully by the time i get home tomorrow she be feelin better. it took me all day to get over my sickness. i hated it, so i made sure i didn't throw up. drunk maddd ginger ale and ain't eat ALL day, ain't drink nothing but ginger ale, i was determined not to throw anything up. it worked but it ain't workin for moms. i hope she get better, i hate being sick and i hate seeing people sick. they be all lazy, and stuff. i be dependin on them to do things for me and now i can't. lol, nah i don't depend on nobody, i just use them frm time to time.
lol @ joe budden " i wont chris brown ya " yeah, he def in the threads. niggah singing the double mint commericals and all. i hate that niggah. i gotta pre order his album though. it comes out 24th, i know... why not just buy it in the store ? idk, i might end up doing that anyway, but why not pre order it ? last album i bought was game. that's ironic. bought game's last album, buyin joe budden FIRST actually decent album IF it ever drops.
my hair's wet, i washed it a few minutes ago, i'm mad sleepy but i'm fightin it. why ? idk, i just like being up late so that i don't wake up until time to go to school. get up, shower, clothes, store, school, class, home... CHILL. my monday usuall. mondays be boring usually, unless i'm annoyin the broads in my math class. quanda & whitney... i always thought darkskinned broads would be named shaquanda, but this bitch is bright as hell... nerdy and thick. yessir. whitney is like 4'2, boney and weird lookin as hell. but i knew em since highschool so they get a pass.
" you the fuckin best " ( to you nae )
i'm in class... but i just seen this and it's worth postin.
this video deserves it's own blog, i like jadakiss version, but this shit is deeper. this video should hit 106 or something, just play it... you'll get where i'm going. i might play that shit over and over tonight. BUT i gotta watch mirale at st. anna... so HAWLUH! remember, pause my music player and push play to the video. shit is crazy
" the world took you through hell, hope you in heaven bro.
i talk to you in my prayers, but here my letter go. "
ayyyy, today i actually enjoyed my whole day. from wakin up to my nephew early, to gettin drunk with a headache from hell. i woke up, like at 9... cause my nephew came to lay with me. he won't tomorrow, they moved into there own house already and hopfully they stay there for the longest. but yeahhh, they're gone and this morning he woke me up from a great sleep so he can jump up. uhh, he went to my mom after i called her and told her he was wide away and i needed to go back to sleep. i got me 2 hours of sleep and then got up and ran to school. it was a okay day, it wasn't cold nor too hot. it won't be hot tomorrow, so i'll wear some shorts. i prolly won't, but it depends on how i feel when i hit the closet in the morning. idk, can't tell you. i change my mind alot of about things. it sucks, but that's me. i should be sending jeanri " sunset - ja rule " but, my ares actin mad slow and won't download the shit. it's downloadin now, but it's gone stop and start up and stop and so on. so i won't bother it until i'm done with this blog.
today, after school... came home, stomach hurtin already.. checked the mail and came home. seen the bad lil broad... i forgot her name but i seen her lil ass walkin home. mad she still in school, young ass. but i came home and played a game, motherfuckin dragged the bobcats. left, went to sister house. stayed there for like 2 hours, i get there and it was chill. they playin cards, jj out on the grill. no problems. when travis and birdy show up niggahs act a fool. first travis and baby momma and him went at it, then birdy and slopp bout to fight over 5 dollars. i mean, i would be mad too but i wouldn't be dumb enough to throw that much out without making sure i get my change so fuck that. chilled with jessica and nikki and my nephew and his cousin. watched some boring ass tv, drunk a budlight, had me a black. was GOOD, finished my budlight and lay on the floor like a damn fool. the hotdoggs was strizzle, the cookout next time better be better.
honestly, gang bangin at that serious, everybody wanna talk about it. niggahs is fake nowdays, making up there own sets nowadays. i don't even think sets round here real. so its pointless to fuck with gangs. sooo... yeah. i stand alone. what i need a whole squad of niggahs to run around and get in bullshit trouble for. anything else, we don't talk. i just don't see the purpose. my arms are gettin tired now, i don't get sleepy until 3/4AM, and yeah... fuck ya'll also... i'm gone. time to watch george lopez. hawluh!
So my dayyy was cool, woke up mad late for stayin up LATE LIKE TONIGHT, but after this i'm a play ONE GAME of 2k9 and then go right to sleep. ckuz i gotta watch boston & spurs then lebron & kobe go at it. Tomorrow line up on abc should be good, celtics need to make up for that lost with lakers and drag some teams. I don't know how they gone do tomorrow, i can't speak too fast. i'll just wait til tomorrow. everybody remember, at 1 celtics and spurs. abc channel, whatever channel that may be. today though, After waking up all late... i was suppose to take nephew out to play but when i got up... sister ended leaving after my mom went to take her boyfriend to the bus station. so they took him when they left so i ended up being here alone glad they ain't leave my nephew to terrorize my ass. he's maddd annoying at time.
I did madd liftin yesterday, i lift weights and then sister wanted me to help her move. so that was even more on my arms. went from back pains, to arm and leg pains and i'm still in pain as i type. but like i said, before i go to sleep i'm a play 2k9. i'm not a bit tired though. but lol @ ol' girl going back to the ex though, like i didn't expect it but it's funny how right i was. i see now on to run with my first thoughts. but i won't stress it. just speakin on how i feel about something that ain't even a big deal but if read, it will be made into a big deal so why bother entertaining it futher more ? but yeahh, i'm on CS, and these niggahs postin nudes like hell and NOBODY gettin erased. well they ain't nudes but close enough, ribs just that cool though. but whatever, i'll upload " back to what you know" right NOW, just so i can listen to that shit play over and over. that's my fav song now, i think i'll play it now.
50 cent = plain stupid, this niggah is a dummy. it's entertaining though. Foxy brown going to go in on him. THAT should be madd intresting. said she gone get him " brooklyn style " or whatever, can't remember what that damn site said. OH WELL, atleast i was close right ?
Get himm, Rick ross baby momma i assume talkin about ross and releasin/exposin' ross or whatever. how he was in his moms benz when they met and how he a lier. I didn't watch it though, I just read what's on top of the video. Shit's too crazy. These niggahs gone destroy eachother, couldn't be mature and let it go like rick ross & bow wow these two niggahs had to get deep into the beef. i think it's pointless though, not the beef but the reason they beefin. they beefin ckuz rick ross got a weird LOOk from 50, how whack ? I ain't gone wait long after something happens to get mad at you over some little look you gave me. " niggahs is transparent, i'm lookin right passss you " typin this lil paragraph got my arms hurtin just that quick, let me get off.
i been all around the world today, and still haven't gotten my motherfuckin check in the mail, niggah i need my nba live 09... i don't wanna wait forever. i played 2k9 earlier, got my ass dragged by spurs. i didn't know them niggahs was so good. i must've had it on all star still, ckuz if not... god damn i'm losing my skill on that game. first spurs then the magic start whoppin my ass... i just got mad and turned it off. but today, i went to class, did a quiz and FAILED and did some work... argue with these niggahs about rappers and then left. came home and fell asleep BUT took my sis to hospital, then woke up to pick her back up. NOW i can't go back to sleep.
tonight at 8, i'm watchin the game. finally i got a clear mind, nothing to stress me out about no bullshit every god damn day. not sayin i don't miss her ass, but damn i feel way better without someone textin me, complaing bout something i'm doing or not doing. that shit is annoyin like hell. especially when i'm always at blame. but it's cool now, i don't fuck with nobody. all these lying ass hos are about to get played. i'm a go try and put my nephew to sleep THEN ONCE AGAIN take my sister to another fuckin store. ya'll don't know how annoying having your L. has gotten. everybody want you to drive them places. they complain if u don't feel like it, then when u drive they complain about EVERYTHING you do " watch the sidewalk, too close to the yellow line, TOO CLOSE TO THEM CARS "
" bran nubia style, i had to love ma BUT leave her alone "
or the priveleges that come with that title "wifey"
i'll be back to blog, i'm tired right now and moms nem' on there way. they expect me to take my grandma home and shit. i had like 3 hours of sleep, prolly 4 but still tHATS NOT ENOUGH. i'm a try and catch a nap before they get back home, then i might blog. if i don't blog by 4 or 5, then most likley i won't be bloggin until late tonight. round 3 to 4. so if you're up then be on the look out. i got some more sit to complain about. i'll be back though. and i didn't have class today, sooo HA motherfuckers. i went there and teacher was sick. I DONT HOPE, but it would be good for the class if she's still sick tomorrow, n thursday
" don't wanna end up lovin ma from a distance "
but i'll be back to blog, i hope they drive slow and don't get here too soon. i need some rest, plus nothings on tv. perfect time to get a quick nap. ya'll check in later to see if i updated. and i haven't read ANY blogs latley. but treys, tianna & jaes... like, idk. i'm lazy, i say i'm a do something then never do it. oh well. [ edit ]. so i'm sittin here watchin american idol, and it's gay. they eliminatin people so quick. but they lettin some of the whack people along. but uhh, i think i might hate this american idol this time around. but i'm sittin here tryna think of something to write, guess i'll just write about my day. woke up madd early after being up all fuckin night, so i was tired and shit. got up, smoked... took a shower and left. went to school, got there and found out my teacher wasn't there. most likely she won't be there tomorrow and the next day cause you can't get over a sickness in 2 days, or maybe in her case she can and HAVE to. but i'm a go to her classes anyway just cause. her class is a computer class tomorrow anyway, its not an important class. all we doing is startin on next chapter. i'll go in there and bullshit on the computer maybe
but after i came home after signin the attendance sheet, i got here and watch videos and watched tv.. and then i thought about sleep. decided to take a nap. right when i'm going to sleep, moms and sis keep buggin em about takin gma', so i had to get up and take gma' home. went to DG and burger king then subway. i wanted burger king but decided to just get subway. i'll get chineese food some other time... gettin tired of subs and burgers. either that or i'm going to get some more chicken from KFC if they still got it. i think tonight i need to get on my mathlab and do that work. matter of a fact, i got a test TOMORROW so i'm a get on that shit now lol, knowing that shit gone be passed due date by 12 tonight. i'll go do that in a hour or 30 minutes so fuck that. i'm a get to that after this blog.
i like the song, i think jada gone get mad props for this song. album might even sell more than he usually do " i'm my own fan ". i been jadakiss fan since knock yourself out and all his first shit, and plus his freestyles are wayyy better than his album music. but he still go hard when he drop albums. my nephew is in here jumpin on my bed and it's annoying. about to lay back... watch home improvement and relax for the rest of the night. WELL see there, already forgot about my fuckin homework. but i'll get to that.
chocolate high > any other song out right now. brb
" ay you love me but did you call me no So is it really really love or am I all that you know? cause you quick to tell a kid to never call you again with that said how can I call you a friend or anything more? how can I see us havin anything more If its that easy what we go through anything for? or..problems lets squash it its senseless dont wanna end up lovin ma from a distance "
" rather me, i ain't ready to be what you want me to be
ckuz i love you.. i want you to leave, plz..."
my day was medicore, type boring. i enjoyed it though. woke up early since a minute, and mostly cause my nephew learned how to open my door. so my morning wake up was HIM and him waste'n my motherfuckin sprite all over my pillow and bed. that's some gay shit. had to throw em in the dyer and couldn't try to go back to sleep. plus i had to pee baddd. ever woke up like that, dreamed of pissing and wake up dick hard... having to pee bad. that shit happens to me alot. i'd rather have wet dreams, fuck the piss dreams. but i see what movies i'm a download tonight. zack and miri make a porno and the infinite playlist bullshit. woot, i'll be watchin those tomorrow. prolly tonight if i get onto it RIGHT after this shit which i will obviously.
but yeah, back to my day. after i got up... i waited to go get dinner. which was KFC for the game and end up eatin that shit wayyy before the game. and the game started out mad boring but ended fuckin good. i liked the endin. these niggahs fought for that shit. but i really wanted Arizona to win and they didn't so fuck the superbowl. I WANTED carolina to make it but they didn't so i picked outtah the two. and happened to pick arizona cause diamonds from there and fuck pittsburg... just cause they won. NOW, next is the playoffs. time for my team to do there thing, if they don't then my next pick is lakers or detroit. nuggets are aight but they look like they slacking. they gotta get used to billups first. dallas might make it, but might not make it all the way. NETS got potential, alot of it. so i got faith in them making it half of the way and doing good. but they won't make it pass magic or celtics. hopefully celtics get up there, they been kinda actin up. went from 19 games, to fuckin up to back on top with 11 straight wins. 8 more until they hit 19 again, if they do its official that they're the best team in the leauge but that's gone be hard.
" i told you from day one, i aint SHIT when it comes to relationships
i don't have the patiences... "
besides sports, i had a okay day besides tianna and her shit. it's like everyday, same shit. i mean i ain't sayin i dont care for her, but god damn... if you can't just simply be my girl and stop doing the dumb shit and stop gettin me mad then you good. but nah, she bring up shit... COPIES ME, why the fuck would i wanna date myself. i got with u for a reason, not to date my motherfuckin self. be your self, that shit ain't cool or funny. that's annoying. but whats done is done and this time i'm tired of the game... i ain't fuckin with it anymore. i'm done going through it over and over again same shit same shit. me tellin you the SAME shit over and over again and you still repeat your self after knowing how i feel about it. niggah if u ain't listening to me then what the hell should i even bother talkin. but besides that, lol @ ol girl and her bf argue'n over my name being her stat. how simple minded niggahs is. but foreal, i'm on my FUCK that shit. meaning, i'm done being nice and considerate and sensitive. fuck YALL. i'm on my fuck you shit. you cross my path i get in that ass. you say something slick then its FUCK you bitch.
that shit looks harddd, but the last shot looked mad fake. glad they brought vin disel back though. vin and the white dude is what made the movie even worth watchin. could've brought the other people back too, but i guess this is cool, that transformer shit looked hot too. i might end up burning the movie though. i hate going to movies now, specially to watch movies that i know won't be THAT hot, it looks good but i'd rather spend money to go seen AALIYAHS first movie then that. and yeah, allhiphop claims aaliyah bout to drop a movie... not soon but you know sometime. i think that'll be crazy, hope jay & dmx be in. dmx especially... which makes me think about that i miss you video. i think i'll post that. i'm too lazy to go find it right now though. i'll get it after i'm comfortable, and bored or something. my nephew pushin mad buttons on my phone... lemme take the shit from him and get off this shit. HAWLUH
i'm mad this blog took me like 30 miutes to do, that ain't long but still... i had to get the pictures, watch the videos and get the links. write all this shit and at the same time i was talkin to miss yolee. SEEMS like she's back talkin to me but then again not really. i remember i was in deleware or whatever, i talked to her ass OD. we talked on the CP laughin up a storm, then got off and text or called each other. talked for hours, and talked til the sun came up one time. but i was mad sleepy so i decided to let her go and take my ass to sleep. I MEAN, i just had to add that in cause yolee flirted with me ODee then, now she on her new new shit. she fuck with me PARTIME. it's OKAY, i'm a squeeze my way back in then BAM!!
done with the bullshit, foreal. but today was lameee. i went EVERYWHERE lookin for padded room and a laptop charger. i'm mad they didn't have SHIT. fuck sumter, i gotta order my charger offline maybe and i gotta call amalgam digital and ask them bout my fuckin order foreal. i just wanted to blog though. i had something say, but now i'm speechless, nothing to write. i was gone write about the tianna situation... but honestly that's a waste of time. like i went through all of that for nothing. so i'll rather forget about it all instead of writtin anything, explaining anything. i left her up on my blog, and on ms and all that, didnt erase her during other break ups ckuz i knew that wasn't the end of it, but i promise you. i'm done this time, she basically put the sheets down... i'm just making the bed, cleaning it up. no need to worry bout THAT anymore. how you gone say i don't care, but i made the attempt to get back with u everytime ? somebody should slap her. blind as hell. but yeah, that's whatever, so.. i'm bout to listen to some budden tracks " relationships are never a threat, i'll erase the history and act like we never met " just saying. but enough about thatttt, alot of shit be en going on, i'm just too lazy to log on here and blog about it.
i talked to ibi for 2 hours, black ass was on the phone with me until somebody called her. i just said fuck it, and talked to ibi all night. mad me and her are like the same. it's crazy, we'd sing the same songs at the same time, say somethings at the same time. make the same noises at the same time. she's like my twin, but not my twin if that makes any sense. but she's real cool, that's like my new bestfriend. i don't know yet, she's real cool though. i never met a person that was like the same as me, beside jeanri... but we're the same in many different ways. that's why we so close, or WAS so close. i hate my laptop foreal, i can't keep it charged for shit. my charger is type stupid. it use to work without me having problems but now it's actin sooooo gay. might just turn it off until i get my charger ckuz this is annoying, foreal. i got a desktop but i'm too lazy. might just MIA it until then. but for now i'm a hit up all my sites, and get the number to call for my motherfuckin CD. i knew i shouldnt have pre ordered that bullshit, joe budden is a dissapointment. how you not have ur cd in every state. like damn, you couldnt get alot of copies out ? we got ur first album and mixtape BUT NO PADDED ROOM ?
nvm, i'm back, charger working better... i had to break something for it to work. not really break anything, but you know... bend it. i might end up sending my computer and charger to toshiba before the warinty expires next month. you know LMAO. send them it and be like it ain't workin right. just break this shit and get a brand new one and a new charger. damn that would be mad smart but i aint cheap. ill just buy me a mac book ckuz the charge last for 8 hours. FINALLY yenno ? a charger that doesnt last a hour and then die out, i hate it. i have to charge it every hour. WHATS THE PURPOSE OF TAKIN IT ON TRIPS ? the trip longer than an hour... you get to play on it for one hour and thats it ? kinda makes no fuckin sense. but yeah. let me unblock this ho, ion why i got mad. I GOT 60 in my pocket, if i find padded room, i'll buy every copy they have. i promise i will. i dont know if i said it before, but i seen starks in walmart, i gotta go listen to the music me him and breezo did. i used to love making music. now my love for it is dying out. i'll still write. MY COUSIN BREEZE GOT AN ASSULT CHARGE. whats wrong with ya'll bitches, claiming some niggah hittin ya'll. i know my cuzzo and he wouldn't beat no bitch down, i mean if u got on my nerves or put ya hands on me then i might do some shit like that but you know... not for no reason. but yeah, it's whack. RIHANNA HAS FUCKED IT UP FOR ITS ALL, but i'll snuff a bitch. ( i'm just kiddin, don't get scared or suspect... i ain't that type of dudeee ) i'm a go though.
i'm a listen to joe budden shit since the shit won't come in the mail. but let me finish talkin to ibi and watchin tv. i think i'm a get some sleep, so i can be up all night and shit. I SKIPPED CLASS, not like we did anything important. i gotta get on my game though. print out some practice tests and get to work yenno ? i'm a impress motherfuckers and stop using people. ckuz i seem to do that alot. i used tia for her practice test to study and ACE test, she get tired of that i know she do but she do it ckuz we cool. people use to do that to me in HS, but i became cool and started cussing niggahs out and doing my own shit. FUCK YALL! my sister should be having the baby soon. sunday or monday, when mom goes back to work. I HOPE THIS ONE IS LIGHTSKINNED TOO, i dont want no dark nephews. i might abuse em. ( i'm KIDDING ) i love my kin, specially my first nephew, that niggah is like my twin so i love him to death. i'm a go. this would've been a big ass paragraph if i connect both like i started to. but i'm not gonna be lazy to make this blog look longer. i'm carrying on though.. hawluh
" I woke up without a heart beat "
February 22, 2009 @ 2:57 AM
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" looks like some shit is on my mind "
today, was great. i wanted to go clubbin with the squad, but these niggahs love goin in clubs throwin up sets and shit like sumter ain't full of haters. seem like shit always pop off when i'm round them niggahs so i left that alone. B came through though, i need to get my cake up and take that pistol off his hands though. niggah tryna sell me a shotgun, fuck i'm a put a shotgun ? i need something small. but yeah, today was cool. next weekend, i'm a try my best to head up to rock hill for that homecoming. i'm tryna get pissy drunk and fuck any broad that smiles my way. this niggah wan a cock blocker. we went to KFC and i'm bout to spit game to some girl he talk to cousin... this niggah gone blurt out " HEY SHANETTA " like man gtfon. she wasn't bad, but she was cute, i remember her from highschool i think. she was decent. i hate walmart broads though, they either got the phone to their ear like they talkin to somebody or strutin round like they ain't 16/15. i seen a lightskinned broad today, baddd from the back. seen her face and she was aight, my niggah jeremy i used to record with was walkin with us then. i pointed her out, niggah ran up with his phone out came back quick. " too young " i can't lie, broads can appear old as fuck now a days... but who wants to be old ? i'd rather stay young forever, just to dick down the old broads, and be young enough to dick down the mid way young hos.
bionca read me a poem/something earlier, i liked it. i don't really like poems like that unless they make sense and rhyme, i barley even read poems. and because of her situation, it made sense. lol @ jeanri tellin me she went with trey then hours later this niggah gone say " idk, ask her " how you not know, c'mon bruh. i can't say shit in my blogs no more, niggahs read it and bring it up... it could be something i wrote 2 years ago and i won't win ANY arguements, anything i say they gone pull my blog and hit that older post button. " oh nah, u ain't say that in your blog " i don't mind though. just lets me know somebody reads my shits. i hate writin a bunch and then feel stupid because nobody really reads blogs. i mean, i only read blogs that are intrestin'. if u sittin there carryin on about dumb shit, or whine'n and complaining about a relationship, or something i don't care for, i won't read. i'll skim though.
i thought about the air force, but changed my mind quick. my cousin and brother both ready to leave then B just left from the navy bootcamp and that niggah said it was whack. said it was just like school " studyin part ". LMAO @ not knowing how to swim. niggah said he aint know how to swim and went into the deep pool anyway. niggah pushed him in and he sanked to the bottom and stayed there. i remember doing that. use to go to pools on base with cousins. and be on side of the pool and hold the side and jump up and just drop to the bottom and hold myself down see who could go the deepest and stay tdown the longest. i miss my cuzzo's, it's crazy ckuz my cousin marvin lost like all his brothers and sisters. i can't believe he lost his TWIN though, thats like his other half, his best friend. i couldn't do it. i just can't see if, lost his twin and two brothers. and it all happened all quick like under two years. AND he lost his pops after all that. ckrazy shit. i think i'll die if i lost siblings or parents. i'm the type where when i'm depressed that shit sinks deep and stays for a while. so i honestly think i'd go MIA, and prolly hit up a halfway house, poppin pills somewhere bounce'n off walls.
tomorrow, i'm a hit the mall back up and hit up walmart. i gotta get my nephew a new outfit, get my 2nd nephew some diapers and shit. get my uhhh sister something just ckuz. get me some new shoes, prolly some fuckin j's that i'll wear twice then pack em up and throw em in the cloest and some more clothes. i got a closet full already, but it's crazy when i wake up in the morning and just sit and stare wonderin what i'm a grab out and put on. it ain't like i got a million choices just don't know what to take out. it happens, but i usually solve it by just randomly grabbin some jeans and the rest just follows. but yeah, i'm not sleepy but i think i'll leave. i'm tired of bloggin and nothing really else to type about.
* pulled out the 2001 rap book, i feel like i wrote some hot shit. or atleast had some nice topics, i'm bout to crack this shit open and read some shit i wrote.
February 20, 2009 @ 1:45 AM
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i was on imeem and ran into a few old tracks i uploaded, i wish i could find them on my computers man. i gotta hit my cousin up to see if he got 'em. for now... i'll just put this on here to let ya'll listen. idk why i like this track so much then the others.
i don't really like bloggin like that anymore. it's just something about it now that i ain't into. it's basically the no privacy. i mean, there ways i can make my shit private but what's the point ? i'll just make a extra blog or something and keep that to myself. i always try to do that and it never works. idk why, i either never update it or i just stop writin in it and start writin in this. but yeah. i'll blog but won't be nothing personal or deep like i used to do. too many people on blogspot know, i ain't tryna have people i know nothing about knowing my life. no offense though.
right now i'm in class, while er body doing work i'm typin this. i was on CS & myspace but that got boring quick and tianna ain't respond to my text nor my message so fuck her punk ass. she'll text me later or so " no text all day ? " and i'll say something rude back. it's sad i haven't man up yet though. i know what i'm doing and what i'm NOT doing but still i don't change up. i will eventually, i just need some time to get it all together. don't doubt me, be about me baby. i'm mad she assume i be fuckin left to right though, like i'm some ho ass niggah. nahh, mistaken. but why am i sayin it, who's gonna believe me ? i'm either lying, playin too much, never serious... etc. oh well. if she don't believe me, she just won't. i can't sit and try and make someone believe me if they refuse to. i won't fuss and argue about it, it is what it is.
i wanna leave this class, but don't want an absence. i haven't had ONE yet, and i'm a keep it that way just cause. i don't hate class as much as i did LAST semester. mannn, every damn day i would hate to come to class. id miss atleast 3 just ckuz and miss another 4 days to take mom to columbia and back home. good excuse, i know. i got alot of things on my mind though. it's crazy, some things eattin me up, botherin the fuck outtah me and others are just there giving me something to really think about. i tried to stop smokin, but i can't. i will after my last black today, i promise you all. i'm done smokin, i'm done the gang bangin, thuggin bullshit... BEEN done with that just still partial affliated. i'm leaving all that ALONE, school work is gone be my main priority, alone with moms, tianna, gettin a fuckin job, helpin with the bills and all that good shit. i been tryna get a job for a year now, that's crazy. well not really a year, i gave up round christmas... i'm back on it, a lil bit.
Kobe sucks, for all you KB24 fans, i hate ya'll. idk why i posted this video. maybe cause my lil 3 paragraphs wasn't enough so i wanted to add something extra just ckuz. yenno ? solange be on twitter and shit, then she stop twitter'n and i see on thisis50.com she overdosed on nyquil and shit. she'll be aight, she too lightweight to be throwin back pills like that. and SHYNE might be released from jail in april. if so, that shit will be huge. as long as he ain't on his faggot shit, or his " i changed " african bullshit. he come out with some dreads, darker skin and his BIG voice niggah will go 3420 times platinum. ( i'm kiddin ) but foreal, whenever he gets out, it's gonna be crazy. being in that bitch for eight years ? that's a long ass time. for some bullshit, i'd come out JUST to hunt diddy down and knock his ass out. pistol whip him or some shit, go back to jail and do a lil time for that dumb shit but i'll feel better that i got out to do that. yenno ? why do i keep sayin yenno, carmen weird ass got me sayin that. i think i'll end this blog now. it's 2:05, i get outtah here at like 2:30 i think and my next class starts at 2:55, i'll go to he car and listen to some music then go and sit in class and do NOTHING.
@ 1:18 AM
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" she be calling my nameee "
new blog, nothing to write about. so i'll post videos. btw, joe budden padded room leaked. im sure EVERYONE has it now. i haven't listened, but i have it. sho ya right.
Kanye West
TI & Justin Timberlake
February 16, 2009 @ 4:54 AM
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" pussy's only pussy, i'll get it when i need it "
since my file den shit actin retarded, had to go to the archive and fetch out some of the old ones. i didn't even know i had so many old ones. i be waste'n shit, make 'em and forget about 'em. thank god for notepad. tonight, lame... i didn't do much, just gettin over a sickness and it's gone be slow. i got school i THINK tomorrow. if i go and theres no cars, i'm coming back home. but i think we'll have regular class. it said it on the site, so if not i'll just come home. i gotta get a black when i leave too. gotta go buy a black, maybe a box and some other shit dependin on if i wanna just spend money. i gotta save... lmaoo @ will smith, niggah stupid. i haven't seen bad boys inna while. i seen bad boys II alot, but not the first one. they need to just come on followin the other.
moms sick, went from nephew, sis, me to moms. that's fucked up. hopfully by the time i get home tomorrow she be feelin better. it took me all day to get over my sickness. i hated it, so i made sure i didn't throw up. drunk maddd ginger ale and ain't eat ALL day, ain't drink nothing but ginger ale, i was determined not to throw anything up. it worked but it ain't workin for moms. i hope she get better, i hate being sick and i hate seeing people sick. they be all lazy, and stuff. i be dependin on them to do things for me and now i can't. lol, nah i don't depend on nobody, i just use them frm time to time.
lol @ joe budden " i wont chris brown ya " yeah, he def in the threads. niggah singing the double mint commericals and all. i hate that niggah. i gotta pre order his album though. it comes out 24th, i know... why not just buy it in the store ? idk, i might end up doing that anyway, but why not pre order it ? last album i bought was game. that's ironic. bought game's last album, buyin joe budden FIRST actually decent album IF it ever drops.
my hair's wet, i washed it a few minutes ago, i'm mad sleepy but i'm fightin it. why ? idk, i just like being up late so that i don't wake up until time to go to school. get up, shower, clothes, store, school, class, home... CHILL. my monday usuall. mondays be boring usually, unless i'm annoyin the broads in my math class. quanda & whitney... i always thought darkskinned broads would be named shaquanda, but this bitch is bright as hell... nerdy and thick. yessir. whitney is like 4'2, boney and weird lookin as hell. but i knew em since highschool so they get a pass.
" you the fuckin best " ( to you nae )
i'm in class... but i just seen this and it's worth postin.
this video deserves it's own blog, i like jadakiss version, but this shit is deeper. this video should hit 106 or something, just play it... you'll get where i'm going. i might play that shit over and over tonight. BUT i gotta watch mirale at st. anna... so HAWLUH! remember, pause my music player and push play to the video. shit is crazy
" the world took you through hell, hope you in heaven bro.
i talk to you in my prayers, but here my letter go. "
February 10, 2009 @ 12:49 AM
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" round and around we goo.. "
ayyyy, today i actually enjoyed my whole day. from wakin up to my nephew early, to gettin drunk with a headache from hell. i woke up, like at 9... cause my nephew came to lay with me. he won't tomorrow, they moved into there own house already and hopfully they stay there for the longest. but yeahhh, they're gone and this morning he woke me up from a great sleep so he can jump up. uhh, he went to my mom after i called her and told her he was wide away and i needed to go back to sleep. i got me 2 hours of sleep and then got up and ran to school. it was a okay day, it wasn't cold nor too hot. it won't be hot tomorrow, so i'll wear some shorts. i prolly won't, but it depends on how i feel when i hit the closet in the morning. idk, can't tell you. i change my mind alot of about things. it sucks, but that's me. i should be sending jeanri " sunset - ja rule " but, my ares actin mad slow and won't download the shit. it's downloadin now, but it's gone stop and start up and stop and so on. so i won't bother it until i'm done with this blog.
today, after school... came home, stomach hurtin already.. checked the mail and came home. seen the bad lil broad... i forgot her name but i seen her lil ass walkin home. mad she still in school, young ass. but i came home and played a game, motherfuckin dragged the bobcats. left, went to sister house. stayed there for like 2 hours, i get there and it was chill. they playin cards, jj out on the grill. no problems. when travis and birdy show up niggahs act a fool. first travis and baby momma and him went at it, then birdy and slopp bout to fight over 5 dollars. i mean, i would be mad too but i wouldn't be dumb enough to throw that much out without making sure i get my change so fuck that. chilled with jessica and nikki and my nephew and his cousin. watched some boring ass tv, drunk a budlight, had me a black. was GOOD, finished my budlight and lay on the floor like a damn fool. the hotdoggs was strizzle, the cookout next time better be better.
honestly, gang bangin at that serious, everybody wanna talk about it. niggahs is fake nowdays, making up there own sets nowadays. i don't even think sets round here real. so its pointless to fuck with gangs. sooo... yeah. i stand alone. what i need a whole squad of niggahs to run around and get in bullshit trouble for. anything else, we don't talk. i just don't see the purpose. my arms are gettin tired now, i don't get sleepy until 3/4AM, and yeah... fuck ya'll also... i'm gone. time to watch george lopez. hawluh!
get it girl
February 8, 2009 @ 2:44 AM
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" niggahs ain't macho man, they miss elizabeth "
So my dayyy was cool, woke up mad late for stayin up LATE LIKE TONIGHT, but after this i'm a play ONE GAME of 2k9 and then go right to sleep. ckuz i gotta watch boston & spurs then lebron & kobe go at it. Tomorrow line up on abc should be good, celtics need to make up for that lost with lakers and drag some teams. I don't know how they gone do tomorrow, i can't speak too fast. i'll just wait til tomorrow. everybody remember, at 1 celtics and spurs. abc channel, whatever channel that may be. today though, After waking up all late... i was suppose to take nephew out to play but when i got up... sister ended leaving after my mom went to take her boyfriend to the bus station. so they took him when they left so i ended up being here alone glad they ain't leave my nephew to terrorize my ass. he's maddd annoying at time.
I did madd liftin yesterday, i lift weights and then sister wanted me to help her move. so that was even more on my arms. went from back pains, to arm and leg pains and i'm still in pain as i type. but like i said, before i go to sleep i'm a play 2k9. i'm not a bit tired though. but lol @ ol' girl going back to the ex though, like i didn't expect it but it's funny how right i was. i see now on to run with my first thoughts. but i won't stress it. just speakin on how i feel about something that ain't even a big deal but if read, it will be made into a big deal so why bother entertaining it futher more ? but yeahh, i'm on CS, and these niggahs postin nudes like hell and NOBODY gettin erased. well they ain't nudes but close enough, ribs just that cool though. but whatever, i'll upload " back to what you know" right NOW, just so i can listen to that shit play over and over. that's my fav song now, i think i'll play it now.
50 cent = plain stupid, this niggah is a dummy. it's entertaining though. Foxy brown going to go in on him. THAT should be madd intresting. said she gone get him " brooklyn style " or whatever, can't remember what that damn site said. OH WELL, atleast i was close right ?
Get himm, Rick ross baby momma i assume talkin about ross and releasin/exposin' ross or whatever. how he was in his moms benz when they met and how he a lier. I didn't watch it though, I just read what's on top of the video. Shit's too crazy. These niggahs gone destroy eachother, couldn't be mature and let it go like rick ross & bow wow these two niggahs had to get deep into the beef. i think it's pointless though, not the beef but the reason they beefin. they beefin ckuz rick ross got a weird LOOk from 50, how whack ? I ain't gone wait long after something happens to get mad at you over some little look you gave me. " niggahs is transparent, i'm lookin right passss you " typin this lil paragraph got my arms hurtin just that quick, let me get off.
February 5, 2009 @ 5:27 PM
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" better off without you "
i been all around the world today, and still haven't gotten my motherfuckin check in the mail, niggah i need my nba live 09... i don't wanna wait forever. i played 2k9 earlier, got my ass dragged by spurs. i didn't know them niggahs was so good. i must've had it on all star still, ckuz if not... god damn i'm losing my skill on that game. first spurs then the magic start whoppin my ass... i just got mad and turned it off. but today, i went to class, did a quiz and FAILED and did some work... argue with these niggahs about rappers and then left. came home and fell asleep BUT took my sis to hospital, then woke up to pick her back up. NOW i can't go back to sleep.
tonight at 8, i'm watchin the game. finally i got a clear mind, nothing to stress me out about no bullshit every god damn day. not sayin i don't miss her ass, but damn i feel way better without someone textin me, complaing bout something i'm doing or not doing. that shit is annoyin like hell. especially when i'm always at blame. but it's cool now, i don't fuck with nobody. all these lying ass hos are about to get played. i'm a go try and put my nephew to sleep THEN ONCE AGAIN take my sister to another fuckin store. ya'll don't know how annoying having your L. has gotten. everybody want you to drive them places. they complain if u don't feel like it, then when u drive they complain about EVERYTHING you do " watch the sidewalk, too close to the yellow line, TOO CLOSE TO THEM CARS "
" bran nubia style, i had to love ma BUT leave her alone "
February 3, 2009 @ 12:30 PM
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" I can't teach you to stand right beside me
or the priveleges that come with that title "wifey"
i'll be back to blog, i'm tired right now and moms nem' on there way. they expect me to take my grandma home and shit. i had like 3 hours of sleep, prolly 4 but still tHATS NOT ENOUGH. i'm a try and catch a nap before they get back home, then i might blog. if i don't blog by 4 or 5, then most likley i won't be bloggin until late tonight. round 3 to 4. so if you're up then be on the look out. i got some more sit to complain about. i'll be back though. and i didn't have class today, sooo HA motherfuckers. i went there and teacher was sick. I DONT HOPE, but it would be good for the class if she's still sick tomorrow, n thursday
" don't wanna end up lovin ma from a distance "
but i'll be back to blog, i hope they drive slow and don't get here too soon. i need some rest, plus nothings on tv. perfect time to get a quick nap. ya'll check in later to see if i updated. and i haven't read ANY blogs latley. but treys, tianna & jaes... like, idk. i'm lazy, i say i'm a do something then never do it. oh well. [ edit ]. so i'm sittin here watchin american idol, and it's gay. they eliminatin people so quick. but they lettin some of the whack people along. but uhh, i think i might hate this american idol this time around. but i'm sittin here tryna think of something to write, guess i'll just write about my day. woke up madd early after being up all fuckin night, so i was tired and shit. got up, smoked... took a shower and left. went to school, got there and found out my teacher wasn't there. most likely she won't be there tomorrow and the next day cause you can't get over a sickness in 2 days, or maybe in her case she can and HAVE to. but i'm a go to her classes anyway just cause. her class is a computer class tomorrow anyway, its not an important class. all we doing is startin on next chapter. i'll go in there and bullshit on the computer maybe
but after i came home after signin the attendance sheet, i got here and watch videos and watched tv.. and then i thought about sleep. decided to take a nap. right when i'm going to sleep, moms and sis keep buggin em about takin gma', so i had to get up and take gma' home. went to DG and burger king then subway. i wanted burger king but decided to just get subway. i'll get chineese food some other time... gettin tired of subs and burgers. either that or i'm going to get some more chicken from KFC if they still got it. i think tonight i need to get on my mathlab and do that work. matter of a fact, i got a test TOMORROW so i'm a get on that shit now lol, knowing that shit gone be passed due date by 12 tonight. i'll go do that in a hour or 30 minutes so fuck that. i'm a get to that after this blog.
i like the song, i think jada gone get mad props for this song. album might even sell more than he usually do " i'm my own fan ". i been jadakiss fan since knock yourself out and all his first shit, and plus his freestyles are wayyy better than his album music. but he still go hard when he drop albums. my nephew is in here jumpin on my bed and it's annoying. about to lay back... watch home improvement and relax for the rest of the night. WELL see there, already forgot about my fuckin homework. but i'll get to that.
chocolate high > any other song out right now. brb
" ay you love me but did you call me no So is it really really love or am I all that you know? cause you quick to tell a kid to never call you again with that said how can I call you a friend or anything more? how can I see us havin anything more If its that easy what we go through anything for? or..problems lets squash it its senseless dont wanna end up lovin ma from a distance "
great lyrics.
February 1, 2009 @ 11:30 PM
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" rather me, i ain't ready to be what you want me to be
ckuz i love you.. i want you to leave, plz..."
my day was medicore, type boring. i enjoyed it though. woke up early since a minute, and mostly cause my nephew learned how to open my door. so my morning wake up was HIM and him waste'n my motherfuckin sprite all over my pillow and bed. that's some gay shit. had to throw em in the dyer and couldn't try to go back to sleep. plus i had to pee baddd. ever woke up like that, dreamed of pissing and wake up dick hard... having to pee bad. that shit happens to me alot. i'd rather have wet dreams, fuck the piss dreams. but i see what movies i'm a download tonight. zack and miri make a porno and the infinite playlist bullshit. woot, i'll be watchin those tomorrow. prolly tonight if i get onto it RIGHT after this shit which i will obviously.
but yeah, back to my day. after i got up... i waited to go get dinner. which was KFC for the game and end up eatin that shit wayyy before the game. and the game started out mad boring but ended fuckin good. i liked the endin. these niggahs fought for that shit. but i really wanted Arizona to win and they didn't so fuck the superbowl. I WANTED carolina to make it but they didn't so i picked outtah the two. and happened to pick arizona cause diamonds from there and fuck pittsburg... just cause they won. NOW, next is the playoffs. time for my team to do there thing, if they don't then my next pick is lakers or detroit. nuggets are aight but they look like they slacking. they gotta get used to billups first. dallas might make it, but might not make it all the way. NETS got potential, alot of it. so i got faith in them making it half of the way and doing good. but they won't make it pass magic or celtics. hopefully celtics get up there, they been kinda actin up. went from 19 games, to fuckin up to back on top with 11 straight wins. 8 more until they hit 19 again, if they do its official that they're the best team in the leauge but that's gone be hard.
" i told you from day one, i aint SHIT when it comes to relationships
i don't have the patiences... "
besides sports, i had a okay day besides tianna and her shit. it's like everyday, same shit. i mean i ain't sayin i dont care for her, but god damn... if you can't just simply be my girl and stop doing the dumb shit and stop gettin me mad then you good. but nah, she bring up shit... COPIES ME, why the fuck would i wanna date myself. i got with u for a reason, not to date my motherfuckin self. be your self, that shit ain't cool or funny. that's annoying. but whats done is done and this time i'm tired of the game... i ain't fuckin with it anymore. i'm done going through it over and over again same shit same shit. me tellin you the SAME shit over and over again and you still repeat your self after knowing how i feel about it. niggah if u ain't listening to me then what the hell should i even bother talkin. but besides that, lol @ ol girl and her bf argue'n over my name being her stat. how simple minded niggahs is. but foreal, i'm on my FUCK that shit. meaning, i'm done being nice and considerate and sensitive. fuck YALL. i'm on my fuck you shit. you cross my path i get in that ass. you say something slick then its FUCK you bitch.
that shit looks harddd, but the last shot looked mad fake. glad they brought vin disel back though. vin and the white dude is what made the movie even worth watchin. could've brought the other people back too, but i guess this is cool, that transformer shit looked hot too. i might end up burning the movie though. i hate going to movies now, specially to watch movies that i know won't be THAT hot, it looks good but i'd rather spend money to go seen AALIYAHS first movie then that. and yeah, allhiphop claims aaliyah bout to drop a movie... not soon but you know sometime. i think that'll be crazy, hope jay & dmx be in. dmx especially... which makes me think about that i miss you video. i think i'll post that. i'm too lazy to go find it right now though. i'll get it after i'm comfortable, and bored or something. my nephew pushin mad buttons on my phone... lemme take the shit from him and get off this shit. HAWLUH
i'm mad this blog took me like 30 miutes to do, that ain't long but still... i had to get the pictures, watch the videos and get the links. write all this shit and at the same time i was talkin to miss yolee. SEEMS like she's back talkin to me but then again not really. i remember i was in deleware or whatever, i talked to her ass OD. we talked on the CP laughin up a storm, then got off and text or called each other. talked for hours, and talked til the sun came up one time. but i was mad sleepy so i decided to let her go and take my ass to sleep. I MEAN, i just had to add that in cause yolee flirted with me ODee then, now she on her new new shit. she fuck with me PARTIME. it's OKAY, i'm a squeeze my way back in then BAM!!
