"I ain't as crazy as I seem to be,
it's just that nothin' is the way that is seem's to me.
Im feelin' less then, druggin' him up with anti-depressants,
In essence im threatenin my character assessment
Truth told, I figure a few hoe's
mixed with some new clothes should cover my loop holes.
If I'm misunderstood or mis-guided,
started when they passed the L' said 'just try it' "
- Joe Budden, Angel in my Life
Information
My name is Jarell & I'm a drug addict. I'd rather be alone, rather then surrounded by familiar strangers. I listen to wayy too much R&B & i hate you all.
i don't really like bloggin like that anymore. it's just something about it now that i ain't into. it's basically the no privacy. i mean, there ways i can make my shit private but what's the point ? i'll just make a extra blog or something and keep that to myself. i always try to do that and it never works. idk why, i either never update it or i just stop writin in it and start writin in this. but yeah. i'll blog but won't be nothing personal or deep like i used to do. too many people on blogspot know, i ain't tryna have people i know nothing about knowing my life. no offense though.
right now i'm in class, while er body doing work i'm typin this. i was on CS & myspace but that got boring quick and tianna ain't respond to my text nor my message so fuck her punk ass. she'll text me later or so " no text all day ? " and i'll say something rude back. it's sad i haven't man up yet though. i know what i'm doing and what i'm NOT doing but still i don't change up. i will eventually, i just need some time to get it all together. don't doubt me, be about me baby. i'm mad she assume i be fuckin left to right though, like i'm some ho ass niggah. nahh, mistaken. but why am i sayin it, who's gonna believe me ? i'm either lying, playin too much, never serious... etc. oh well. if she don't believe me, she just won't. i can't sit and try and make someone believe me if they refuse to. i won't fuss and argue about it, it is what it is.
i wanna leave this class, but don't want an absence. i haven't had ONE yet, and i'm a keep it that way just cause. i don't hate class as much as i did LAST semester. mannn, every damn day i would hate to come to class. id miss atleast 3 just ckuz and miss another 4 days to take mom to columbia and back home. good excuse, i know. i got alot of things on my mind though. it's crazy, some things eattin me up, botherin the fuck outtah me and others are just there giving me something to really think about. i tried to stop smokin, but i can't. i will after my last black today, i promise you all. i'm done smokin, i'm done the gang bangin, thuggin bullshit... BEEN done with that just still partial affliated. i'm leaving all that ALONE, school work is gone be my main priority, alone with moms, tianna, gettin a fuckin job, helpin with the bills and all that good shit. i been tryna get a job for a year now, that's crazy. well not really a year, i gave up round christmas... i'm back on it, a lil bit.
Kobe sucks, for all you KB24 fans, i hate ya'll. idk why i posted this video. maybe cause my lil 3 paragraphs wasn't enough so i wanted to add something extra just ckuz. yenno ? solange be on twitter and shit, then she stop twitter'n and i see on thisis50.com she overdosed on nyquil and shit. she'll be aight, she too lightweight to be throwin back pills like that. and SHYNE might be released from jail in april. if so, that shit will be huge. as long as he ain't on his faggot shit, or his " i changed " african bullshit. he come out with some dreads, darker skin and his BIG voice niggah will go 3420 times platinum. ( i'm kiddin ) but foreal, whenever he gets out, it's gonna be crazy. being in that bitch for eight years ? that's a long ass time. for some bullshit, i'd come out JUST to hunt diddy down and knock his ass out. pistol whip him or some shit, go back to jail and do a lil time for that dumb shit but i'll feel better that i got out to do that. yenno ? why do i keep sayin yenno, carmen weird ass got me sayin that. i think i'll end this blog now. it's 2:05, i get outtah here at like 2:30 i think and my next class starts at 2:55, i'll go to he car and listen to some music then go and sit in class and do NOTHING.
i don't really like bloggin like that anymore. it's just something about it now that i ain't into. it's basically the no privacy. i mean, there ways i can make my shit private but what's the point ? i'll just make a extra blog or something and keep that to myself. i always try to do that and it never works. idk why, i either never update it or i just stop writin in it and start writin in this. but yeah. i'll blog but won't be nothing personal or deep like i used to do. too many people on blogspot know, i ain't tryna have people i know nothing about knowing my life. no offense though.
right now i'm in class, while er body doing work i'm typin this. i was on CS & myspace but that got boring quick and tianna ain't respond to my text nor my message so fuck her punk ass. she'll text me later or so " no text all day ? " and i'll say something rude back. it's sad i haven't man up yet though. i know what i'm doing and what i'm NOT doing but still i don't change up. i will eventually, i just need some time to get it all together. don't doubt me, be about me baby. i'm mad she assume i be fuckin left to right though, like i'm some ho ass niggah. nahh, mistaken. but why am i sayin it, who's gonna believe me ? i'm either lying, playin too much, never serious... etc. oh well. if she don't believe me, she just won't. i can't sit and try and make someone believe me if they refuse to. i won't fuss and argue about it, it is what it is.
i wanna leave this class, but don't want an absence. i haven't had ONE yet, and i'm a keep it that way just cause. i don't hate class as much as i did LAST semester. mannn, every damn day i would hate to come to class. id miss atleast 3 just ckuz and miss another 4 days to take mom to columbia and back home. good excuse, i know. i got alot of things on my mind though. it's crazy, some things eattin me up, botherin the fuck outtah me and others are just there giving me something to really think about. i tried to stop smokin, but i can't. i will after my last black today, i promise you all. i'm done smokin, i'm done the gang bangin, thuggin bullshit... BEEN done with that just still partial affliated. i'm leaving all that ALONE, school work is gone be my main priority, alone with moms, tianna, gettin a fuckin job, helpin with the bills and all that good shit. i been tryna get a job for a year now, that's crazy. well not really a year, i gave up round christmas... i'm back on it, a lil bit.
Kobe sucks, for all you KB24 fans, i hate ya'll. idk why i posted this video. maybe cause my lil 3 paragraphs wasn't enough so i wanted to add something extra just ckuz. yenno ? solange be on twitter and shit, then she stop twitter'n and i see on thisis50.com she overdosed on nyquil and shit. she'll be aight, she too lightweight to be throwin back pills like that. and SHYNE might be released from jail in april. if so, that shit will be huge. as long as he ain't on his faggot shit, or his " i changed " african bullshit. he come out with some dreads, darker skin and his BIG voice niggah will go 3420 times platinum. ( i'm kiddin ) but foreal, whenever he gets out, it's gonna be crazy. being in that bitch for eight years ? that's a long ass time. for some bullshit, i'd come out JUST to hunt diddy down and knock his ass out. pistol whip him or some shit, go back to jail and do a lil time for that dumb shit but i'll feel better that i got out to do that. yenno ? why do i keep sayin yenno, carmen weird ass got me sayin that. i think i'll end this blog now. it's 2:05, i get outtah here at like 2:30 i think and my next class starts at 2:55, i'll go to he car and listen to some music then go and sit in class and do NOTHING.