Thought Process
"I ain't as crazy as I seem to be, it's just that nothin' is the way that is seem's to me. Im feelin' less then, druggin' him up with anti-depressants, In essence im threatenin my character assessment Truth told, I figure a few hoe's mixed with some new clothes should cover my loop holes. If I'm misunderstood or mis-guided, started when they passed the L' said 'just try it' "

- Joe Budden, Angel in my Life
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My name is Jarell & I'm a drug addict. I'd rather be alone, rather then surrounded by familiar strangers. I listen to wayy too much R&B & i hate you all.



March 8, 2009 @ 5:26 AM
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" when love is your problem, nothing can solve it! "

dream album been aight so far, j holiday shit stil hard though. it's 5:26... idk if that's the right time but i think im a need to go to sleep after watchin this movie " over her dead body " it won't be up to watch after 10:00 AM today. i didn't know that, glad i decided to watch it right now. i don't know what's wrong with file den either, i've been tryna get to the site for the pass 10 minutes now. after i been on the site just now... it wanna load slow and shit. prolly something i did, idk. it need to stop actin up while i know the song i wanna upload. shit always wanna act up when i need it to work. that's some pure bullshit. it has that lil circle and Connecting beside it with ....'s. i keep staring at it, thinkin it's gonne connect already but it says the same thing everytime i glance up from readin what i type. fuck it, i might just watch this movie and if it decides it wants to work later i'll use it. GOD. i hate this internet shit. why it wanna stop workin when i got shit to upload, now i gotta go round the Inet lookin for something to upload these songs onto and i gotta do registerin and mail checkin and THEN when i finally get it up and uploadin fileden will be done. SEE HOW DIFFICULT THIS THING IS ? ill just wait, if i fall asleep... ill upload tomorrow. i ain't got the time.

lol @ the convo earlier, i swear... fakes aren't smart at all. i mean, i ran into alot that's a bad thing. running into alot of fakes, youd think i'd know who's fake and who's real by now. i still can't figure it out. weither it's fake, as in stealin pics or fake as in character. to tell the truth, i'm a just stay to myself and fuck with those i fucked with from get go. i talk shit bout people, but damn... i always talk shit. i don't say nothing personal, ya'll niggahs be whisperin PERSONAL, rude ass shit about each other. even about me, difference bout me is i don't care. i really don't. sorry. i was stuck with my nephew today though. until mom came home then dipped out. i was ashamed for the young girls in Walmart. they look bout 10-13, dressin like they grown. all of 'em bout 4'9, then another group of hos... like 4, look older. i come from outtah the papertowl/paperplate isle walkin to the babysection to grab zamari & jay some diapers. broads passed by, i hear mumblin, as they passed and some stand blocked most of there face and the last chick was walkin behind it, the blackest i assume... made it mad obvious by lookin directly at me. coming off the aisle " let's get you some napkins 'some random broad name' " i ain't hear the chick name. mad dude's walkin in groups, like i went to walmart just ckuz its down the streets. these niggahs hit up walmart like it's a 2nd mall and walk around the whole store... like 3 times just to be seen or to see everybody. i seen raheem with some dudes frm HS, niggah got a baby now... black ass HELL.

but yeah, tomorrow... nephew goes home, and i get to rest the rest of the day and CHILL. i hate the internet. I GET fileden to work and that shit won't even play the songs. i guess i'll wait til i wake up or something. i'm tired of fuckin with this. i've been fuckin with it since 2 something last night. well that's when i thought about startin, i started a hour ago. i found out a way to get the feelin back in ur arm. if u layin on it or leaning on it and it starts to tingle. like if u was sleepin on it. i just flex my muscle, keep doing it until i get the feeling back. I know it's weird, but just lean on ur arm one day, or ur leg or sometihng and when it starts tingles... just flex your muscle and the feelin a be right back. OKAY i'm done with the dumb random shit. holler... lol @ it workin on firefox though. GOT IT, i gotta find out why it aint workin on IE.

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