Thought Process
"I ain't as crazy as I seem to be, it's just that nothin' is the way that is seem's to me. Im feelin' less then, druggin' him up with anti-depressants, In essence im threatenin my character assessment Truth told, I figure a few hoe's mixed with some new clothes should cover my loop holes. If I'm misunderstood or mis-guided, started when they passed the L' said 'just try it' "

- Joe Budden, Angel in my Life
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My name is Jarell & I'm a drug addict. I'd rather be alone, rather then surrounded by familiar strangers. I listen to wayy too much R&B & i hate you all.



February 26, 2009 @ 5:59 PM
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" theres no room for me and you to grow
don't love me, leave me alone... DO BOTH "


done with the bullshit, foreal. but today was lameee. i went EVERYWHERE lookin for padded room and a laptop charger. i'm mad they didn't have SHIT. fuck sumter, i gotta order my charger offline maybe and i gotta call amalgam digital and ask them bout my fuckin order foreal. i just wanted to blog though. i had something say, but now i'm speechless, nothing to write. i was gone write about the tianna situation... but honestly that's a waste of time. like i went through all of that for nothing. so i'll rather forget about it all instead of writtin anything, explaining anything. i left her up on my blog, and on ms and all that, didnt erase her during other break ups ckuz i knew that wasn't the end of it, but i promise you. i'm done this time, she basically put the sheets down... i'm just making the bed, cleaning it up. no need to worry bout THAT anymore. how you gone say i don't care, but i made the attempt to get back with u everytime ? somebody should slap her. blind as hell. but yeah, that's whatever, so.. i'm bout to listen to some budden tracks " relationships are never a threat, i'll erase the history and act like we never met " just saying. but enough about thatttt, alot of shit be en going on, i'm just too lazy to log on here and blog about it.

i talked to ibi for 2 hours, black ass was on the phone with me until somebody called her. i just said fuck it, and talked to ibi all night. mad me and her are like the same. it's crazy, we'd sing the same songs at the same time, say somethings at the same time. make the same noises at the same time. she's like my twin, but not my twin if that makes any sense. but she's real cool, that's like my new bestfriend. i don't know yet, she's real cool though. i never met a person that was like the same as me, beside jeanri... but we're the same in many different ways. that's why we so close, or WAS so close. i hate my laptop foreal, i can't keep it charged for shit. my charger is type stupid. it use to work without me having problems but now it's actin sooooo gay. might just turn it off until i get my charger ckuz this is annoying, foreal. i got a desktop but i'm too lazy. might just MIA it until then. but for now i'm a hit up all my sites, and get the number to call for my motherfuckin CD. i knew i shouldnt have pre ordered that bullshit, joe budden is a dissapointment. how you not have ur cd in every state. like damn, you couldnt get alot of copies out ? we got ur first album and mixtape BUT NO PADDED ROOM ?

nvm, i'm back, charger working better... i had to break something for it to work. not really break anything, but you know... bend it. i might end up sending my computer and charger to toshiba before the warinty expires next month. you know LMAO. send them it and be like it ain't workin right. just break this shit and get a brand new one and a new charger. damn that would be mad smart but i aint cheap. ill just buy me a mac book ckuz the charge last for 8 hours. FINALLY yenno ? a charger that doesnt last a hour and then die out, i hate it. i have to charge it every hour. WHATS THE PURPOSE OF TAKIN IT ON TRIPS ? the trip longer than an hour... you get to play on it for one hour and thats it ? kinda makes no fuckin sense. but yeah. let me unblock this ho, ion why i got mad. I GOT 60 in my pocket, if i find padded room, i'll buy every copy they have. i promise i will. i dont know if i said it before, but i seen starks in walmart, i gotta go listen to the music me him and breezo did. i used to love making music. now my love for it is dying out. i'll still write. MY COUSIN BREEZE GOT AN ASSULT CHARGE. whats wrong with ya'll bitches, claiming some niggah hittin ya'll. i know my cuzzo and he wouldn't beat no bitch down, i mean if u got on my nerves or put ya hands on me then i might do some shit like that but you know... not for no reason. but yeah, it's whack. RIHANNA HAS FUCKED IT UP FOR ITS ALL, but i'll snuff a bitch. ( i'm just kiddin, don't get scared or suspect... i ain't that type of dudeee ) i'm a go though.

i'm a listen to joe budden shit since the shit won't come in the mail. but let me finish talkin to ibi and watchin tv. i think i'm a get some sleep, so i can be up all night and shit. I SKIPPED CLASS, not like we did anything important. i gotta get on my game though. print out some practice tests and get to work yenno ? i'm a impress motherfuckers and stop using people. ckuz i seem to do that alot. i used tia for her practice test to study and ACE test, she get tired of that i know she do but she do it ckuz we cool. people use to do that to me in HS, but i became cool and started cussing niggahs out and doing my own shit. FUCK YALL! my sister should be having the baby soon. sunday or monday, when mom goes back to work. I HOPE THIS ONE IS LIGHTSKINNED TOO, i dont want no dark nephews. i might abuse em. ( i'm KIDDING ) i love my kin, specially my first nephew, that niggah is like my twin so i love him to death. i'm a go. this would've been a big ass paragraph if i connect both like i started to. but i'm not gonna be lazy to make this blog look longer. i'm carrying on though.. hawluh

" I woke up without a heart beat "

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