i'm a bit sleepy, watchin this old christmas episode of fresh prince. i'm not really watchin, but listening which is what i do round this time when i'm on here and the tv's on. today was aight, i got up late like always and thought i was going to actually do something but only ended up going to walmart and spendin hours in there just to return one god damn game. i guess the christmas last minute shoppin thing is going on and keepin these niggahs too busy. i actually stood in 3 lines today, just for a return. left walmart highly annoyed, just wanted to get home. idk if the workers heard me complain'n about how slow they where and how they better hurry the hell up before i get rude. i tried not to be rude but it felt like them niggahs was testin my gangster. suwop ? but nah, this gang shit is played out. it's like every time i turn somebody either a blood or a crip... if not they claiming some made up gang, i give up tryna keep up with ya'll guys.

tomorrow, got nothing really important to do. just going to a christmas party at my sisters job... i don't care too much for who's gonna be there or none of that whack shit, i just remember last year how it was. old asses in the middle of the floor tryna dance, people from military coming in and eating then leaving like they we're invited. shit was cool to say it was a hand full of people i didn't know. i turned my phone off at like 9, turned it back on at 10 then turned it back off. now it's sittin here chargin... prolly done chargin but i don't care. i wanna play some 2k9 to keep me up, but being that i suck at that shit i don't want to lose and get mad and break the controller on one of these walls or some shit. i was close to doing it early, fuckin gay ass game.

what's your new years resolution ? idk mine yet, i prolly got handfull. nothing out of the ordinary though like... try harder in school, distant myself from some people, trust no one, show no love... etc type shit. basically shit that has had me almost on some emo shit. some may say i was a bit passed emo stage but i don't think so. i think i was just down, and alot of shit going on... and niggahs wasn't making it no better so i just got tired. when i'm tired of shit i just give up on niggahs, give up on caring, give up on everything and that's it. nothing really to it, nothing anybody can say or do to change that. moms cancer issue, sisters issues which are like all scattered... from her not being able to drive her own damn car to her being pregnant again and easy to get mad and bullshit like that. i can't live with this, i need a car so i can just drive as far away from this and get my mind straight. idc where, just far from sumter, SC.

i decided not to start ignoring motherfuckers. why ? idk, i just feel like i've been being too nice and shit to some of ya'll folks. i feel like i've been letting ya'll get away with shit. like we won't talk for 3232 months and out of the blue here you go tryna talk to me and joke around with me or some shit. i'll just get you the =| face or a simple lol. if its not worth that, you ain't getting shit. ignoring calls, erasing numbers, got a total of 16 people on my myspace list... and like 12 people on my yahoo so i prolly erased you just cause i haven't talked to you in a week or so. i'm just that fucked up. it's sad, r&b and these sad songs, budden songs and most of EM shit are like the key to my saneness. i've been feeling mad down, and edgy lately. i don't know what's been wrong with me, that's just how i've been lately and i think it's just stress that i'll easy get rid of sooner than later. this blog wasn't suppose to be this long btw.
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i'm a bit sleepy, watchin this old christmas episode of fresh prince. i'm not really watchin, but listening which is what i do round this time when i'm on here and the tv's on. today was aight, i got up late like always and thought i was going to actually do something but only ended up going to walmart and spendin hours in there just to return one god damn game. i guess the christmas last minute shoppin thing is going on and keepin these niggahs too busy. i actually stood in 3 lines today, just for a return. left walmart highly annoyed, just wanted to get home. idk if the workers heard me complain'n about how slow they where and how they better hurry the hell up before i get rude. i tried not to be rude but it felt like them niggahs was testin my gangster. suwop ? but nah, this gang shit is played out. it's like every time i turn somebody either a blood or a crip... if not they claiming some made up gang, i give up tryna keep up with ya'll guys.

tomorrow, got nothing really important to do. just going to a christmas party at my sisters job... i don't care too much for who's gonna be there or none of that whack shit, i just remember last year how it was. old asses in the middle of the floor tryna dance, people from military coming in and eating then leaving like they we're invited. shit was cool to say it was a hand full of people i didn't know. i turned my phone off at like 9, turned it back on at 10 then turned it back off. now it's sittin here chargin... prolly done chargin but i don't care. i wanna play some 2k9 to keep me up, but being that i suck at that shit i don't want to lose and get mad and break the controller on one of these walls or some shit. i was close to doing it early, fuckin gay ass game.

what's your new years resolution ? idk mine yet, i prolly got handfull. nothing out of the ordinary though like... try harder in school, distant myself from some people, trust no one, show no love... etc type shit. basically shit that has had me almost on some emo shit. some may say i was a bit passed emo stage but i don't think so. i think i was just down, and alot of shit going on... and niggahs wasn't making it no better so i just got tired. when i'm tired of shit i just give up on niggahs, give up on caring, give up on everything and that's it. nothing really to it, nothing anybody can say or do to change that. moms cancer issue, sisters issues which are like all scattered... from her not being able to drive her own damn car to her being pregnant again and easy to get mad and bullshit like that. i can't live with this, i need a car so i can just drive as far away from this and get my mind straight. idc where, just far from sumter, SC.

i decided not to start ignoring motherfuckers. why ? idk, i just feel like i've been being too nice and shit to some of ya'll folks. i feel like i've been letting ya'll get away with shit. like we won't talk for 3232 months and out of the blue here you go tryna talk to me and joke around with me or some shit. i'll just get you the =| face or a simple lol. if its not worth that, you ain't getting shit. ignoring calls, erasing numbers, got a total of 16 people on my myspace list... and like 12 people on my yahoo so i prolly erased you just cause i haven't talked to you in a week or so. i'm just that fucked up. it's sad, r&b and these sad songs, budden songs and most of EM shit are like the key to my saneness. i've been feeling mad down, and edgy lately. i don't know what's been wrong with me, that's just how i've been lately and i think it's just stress that i'll easy get rid of sooner than later. this blog wasn't suppose to be this long btw.