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"I ain't as crazy as I seem to be, it's just that nothin' is the way that is seem's to me. Im feelin' less then, druggin' him up with anti-depressants, In essence im threatenin my character assessment Truth told, I figure a few hoe's mixed with some new clothes should cover my loop holes. If I'm misunderstood or mis-guided, started when they passed the L' said 'just try it' "

- Joe Budden, Angel in my Life
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My name is Jarell & I'm a drug addict. I'd rather be alone, rather then surrounded by familiar strangers. I listen to wayy too much R&B & i hate you all.



November 20, 2008 @ 3:41 PM
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" if you leave, then i'll leave - i'll let it go " - disregard those last two blogs, i wrote them shits in a hurry. specially the one before this one. i was in class waitin for the teacher and she happen to come in just a lil too early and catch me on the internet "erin, get off myspace" class was madd boring though, we sat and went over the easy ass test i got 73/75 points on it, but didnt do the 25 questions so i didn't get the whole 100 or whatever. then we answered some questions and got to leave whenever we was done with that.. math class was the same, sorta. we just went over another chapter and i really feel that class is useless, i could just buy the book and teach my self... he ain't no help, niggah be readin out the book how retarded. he kinda helps out when the book don't be explaining enough.

got homee, and relaxed then went and checked the mail & stuff. today was mad weird, idk. i was driving all crazy and shit, i'm a kill myself one of these days on the road. i need to stop drivin all fool. kids was walkin home in the neighborhood today, i got soo mad these lil niggahs walkin behind my car. i'm walkin and they standin behind me chattin and playin around. i shoulda ran 'em over. tianna's actin weird, idk... never been in this situation to know how to handle it. i'm just tryna get it back to how it was, and how comfortable i was... now everything's all whack and i feel akward, i don't like that feeling. something needs to happen ASAP! i don't even like puttin my bidness out there so i won't even talk about it anymore. but yeahh, all i did today was ignore the teacher and write songs like i always do. which is gone be the main reason i have to take these same classes later in the years.

i gotta register for my classes and get my finacial aid shit right. lmao @ my pops sendin ME money on my SISTERS birthday. like, this niggah is cheap as fuck, he sent us 50 dollars to split up and he wrote a list that reads " erin - 30 nikki - 15 lil jay - 5 " this niggah is slow, i'm ashamed to call him my father. fuck him though, him and that bald head broad he fuckin'. niggah has NO taste. my brother pose to be coming home this weekend, and it pose to be a suprise but my big ass mouth fucked that up being that i was so happy knowing something THEY didn't know i hinted around and they guessed. FUCK THEM! owwww, let me dip now and watch this movie. i been puttin it to the side for 2 nights... shit and i barley got school now, ckuz all i got is monday and tuesday which might be walk in and walk out classes. then i got a whole weekend of me bullshittin around i need to stop fallin asleep earlier. let me shut up and I FUCKIN HATE YOU SHANAE. idk why, i just do.

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