Thought Process
"I ain't as crazy as I seem to be, it's just that nothin' is the way that is seem's to me. Im feelin' less then, druggin' him up with anti-depressants, In essence im threatenin my character assessment Truth told, I figure a few hoe's mixed with some new clothes should cover my loop holes. If I'm misunderstood or mis-guided, started when they passed the L' said 'just try it' "

- Joe Budden, Angel in my Life
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My name is Jarell & I'm a drug addict. I'd rather be alone, rather then surrounded by familiar strangers. I listen to wayy too much R&B & i hate you all.



September 29, 2008 @ 8:22 PM
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" is anything I'm doing brand new ? "

yeah, madd nervous ckuz moms about to have surgery.. i ain't get NO sleep last night. was up til 5:30, kept getting up and shit smoking the black. i wanna smoke a black now, but niggahs in this house gone keep track of me and ain't gone let me out there site, as well as my sister i guess i'll wait til i get back home til i smoke my lungs away. i only went to one class, the boring class. i promise you, i was in the back falling asleep... broads chucklin in my ear and shit, i got mad for a second ckuz i'm tryna rest. but the class eventually ended.

" It seems like everything I do, your used to it "

had HELL with my nephew in the hospital early, i was madddd as fuck with that lil niggah. now i'm in here with Q & D, this niggah q be on that whack hiphop.. i gotta put him on everytime i come here. niggah can't SLEEP on budden though. the nurse at the hospital looked about 27-30, but jesus her light brown eyes had me.. and she kept walking through the waiting room back and forth. but yeah, my day was okay... kind've bad. had a few bad moments that i was pissed at. i'm bout to spend broke on stupid shit too. i'm a do it just for moms though, plus she MIGHT be sick so she signed my name on her car... gave me her safe card and her number for it incase she be too sick. i HATE when she talk like that.. making it seem like something's gonna happen to her. that shit makes me madd nervous, like i cant have ANYTHING happen to her ckuz i'm a really be lost if that shit happens. so pray for the best, i will... everyone else in the family will so for those who care a least a lil bit, do that for me

you make me smileeeeeeeeeee, with my heartt. i'm about to go into the living room and see what my family doing and what my nephew is doing. i'm a download some intrsumentals while i'm up late tonight, knowing i won't be able to sleep at ALL. and i swear i'm writtin alot right now, WHY ? idk. tianna just popped into my head, i ain't get to talk to her bitch ass earlier ckuz i was on my phone on yahoo and i wasn't paying it no attention so yeah. her bitch ass needs a phone or some shit before i get pissed and piss on somebody.

" Is this gonna last ?
Your up on a pedastal, are we moving too fast ?
Feel like I'm in crazy competition with the past.. "

lmaoooo @ this niggah burning all these freestyles, maddd freestyles of him, my cousin dubb, d, larry, breeze. yo... shit is maddd old but i remember these shits. that was when rapping was fun, and you know we did that shit for entertainment and shit.. now niggahs in the booth slave'n it. i ain't with that, i'm a work a mixtape though, writing a few tracks as we SPEAK to no beats though. that's all i need is beats from cousin and i'll go in and actually have a FEW mixtapes written.

" Tell me baby, am I too late ? "

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